Rumohra adiantiformis

3-444.11.14EssenceThis personality feels left alone, which give overwhelming sadness. It feels like an innocent, curious, joyful, little girl desiring to fully experience life and then getting betrayed. It can lead to feeling stuck in a "shadow" state where transformation is difficult.
This personality is like a child that is send by his parents to a youth camp where he feels lost. When he goes back and sees his parents he runs away. He keeps blaming his mother, but still takes care of her.
Children who are beaten by their parents, and are often in hospital for such traumas and diseases, often maltreated, but they keep smiling for their parents; they permit things, are honest.
A woman beaten by her husband; she is lonely but goes on, has a great resilience, sustained by small positive events.
Family, together and separate, where one member cannot develop himself due to others being too rigid.
A soft vulnerable child, standing at a crossroads, left alone by his parents, standing still, astonished, not crying.
Parents who keep on beating their children.
A child who is traumatised and closed in himself, hiding behind his arms; he doesn’t want to be seen; he feels not understood by adults; he cannot tell what is the problem.MindRefined, resistant.
Anxious, sad, pushed aside, unfeeling.
Wants to prove himself in this world.
Strong, powerful, rigid.
Red-hot, white-hot spirit.
Distant and close.
Emptiness, loneliness.
Childish, vulnerable.
Unbelievable will to live.
Behaving as if soft and refined.
Overwhelmed.
One has to be rigid to suppress one’s vulnerability.
Silent, not talking about traumas.
Numbness in forehead, not unpleasant, no further thoughts, just not feeling.
Tired, forgetful.
Behaving as if being invulnerable.
Little reflection, floating, hovering.
Spinal cord problems, left side.
Feels small, is unaware of one’s size.
Feels weak despite his strength.
Careful.
Spina bifida.
Stays hidden.
Elves, small forest people.
PTSS, numb, stunned.
A family where everyone is shouting, trying to get the attention of others.
A parents who has forgotten her child and is in shock.
Unaware of things.
Aversion being touched, irritated from it.
Not understood, feels different from others, thus does not open himself.
Absolute about what is right or wrong.
Closed.
Abused.
Rigid.
Leave me alone.
Resignation, not the power of cynicism.
Just being, that is enough.
Separation of each other.
Dreams: beautiful situations.
Overwhelming sadness, suppressed grief, emotional isolation.
Resistance to confront pain they did not want to revisit.
Feeling completely void and disconnected.
Struggling against emotions, suppressing them.
Theme: life, death, rebirth, near-death experiences, incarnation, deep existential reflections.
Theme: structured creativity, art, beauty, creative mastery, architectural wonders, intricate designs, exhibitions of art, s.
Theme: I-ness; awareness surviving personal destruction; guides helping the transformation process.
Vision: being creator of all the art in dreams, with deep joy and inspiration.
Duality: love versus betrayal, youth versus old, clarity versus confusion.
Deep sadness, grief, and emotional numbness.
Resistance to confronting past trauma.
A sense of rebirth, as if shedding an old self.
Encounters with spiritual guides, childhood innocence, and subconscious fears.
Desire to dig into the mud with hands and feet.
Desire for grounding and connection to the earth.
Need for clarity and truth, with feelings of deceit and hidden layers surfacing.GeneralDesire: tomatoes.BodyGeneral: stasis, stagnation; leukaemia; metabolism problems; haemoglobin problems.
Head: throbbing pain in left temple and forehead.
Nose blocked, yellow crusts.
Throat: tonsil enlarged, touching each other.
Lungs: cough, asthma, COPD.
Abdomen: liver and gal, problems; intoxication, not detoxified by the liver.
Rectum: constipation, alternating with diarrhoea; stool hard, copious; haemorrhoids, painful, bleeding.
Back: sensation of walking with a knife in the back.