Lecanopteris pustulata

3-444.16.11EssenceThis personality feels like an alien, totally different from others. He feels ugly, handicapped, as if a part is missing, as if he is amputated. Emotions can be very painful, so he does not want to feel anymore, as feelings are too painful.
He wants to have a relationship. When he loves someone, he will do that fully, so much so that it becomes suffocating for the other. When the other retires, he can become very angry from feeling unloved. Then he retires in his own world. In his cocoon he finds safety, in his alien home, his own world, his own bubble. That is his safe base, where he is closed off, cut off from the outside world, where he cannot be reached then, as the door is locked.MindFeeling like an alien, being strange, not normal, not understood, not rooted on earth, as if speaking Chinese.
Anger seldom, then destructive, < not being appreciated and understood after so much love.
Loving intimately, but also being intimately angry.
Aversion anger, losing control.
Feeling double, ambivalent.
Live in excesses, extremes, joining the wildest parties and having fun, or being incredibly lonely.GeneralFood: very picky, selective.
Aversion: earthy food.
Sleep: very restless; waking up screaming; position upside down.BodyHead: heavy, there is a short circuit, I want it to be lighter > banging my head.
Eyes: amblyopia; vision unclear, distorted.
Nose: hay fever.
Lungs: asthma, < allergen.
Heart: rhythm disorder, beats missing.
Stomach cramps.
Rectum: constipation.
Limbs: walking awkward; many accidents, fractures.