Tricholomopsis rutilans

Sense proving, 24-9-2021, Zell, Jan ScholtenProver 1Sudden departure of a friend, fellow combatant.
Vietnam veterans who support each other through thick and thin, only understand each other; the home front can never understand such a thing, only if they can see a visual element of it, like the film the Deer Hunter; but do they want that or can they?
The friendship was the only beautiful thing in the situation of war and terror, when you lose that, the worst terror remains.
Post-traumatic stress syndrome.
Bending over.
Phase five.
Friends are the only ones who make you feel that you were not bad but that you could not do otherwise in the given circumstances.
Living with the question have I done enough for my comrades.
Angry at friends who die and abandon you, leaving you alone pain in the solar plexus, pressing, like a ball.
Tics, in the fingers.
Auto aggression, self-mutilation, cutting in the arms.DiscussionSudden departure of a friend and comrade-in-arms.
Veterans always supporting each other - but people at home don't understand Vietnam veterans - that can only be understood through a good narrative or film... but you don't want to hear it because it is too terrible.
In war, friendship was the only beautiful thing - when friendship is lost, only terror is left... friendship goes very deep... life depends on friendship. For better or worse.
PTSD
Friends are the only ones who make you feel that you were not to blame for what you did; the comrades give you energy again; the only purpose was to protect the comrades, I have done enough for my comrades.
anger at friends who die or leave - feeling abandoned.
Pain in the solar plexus like a ball.
Tics in finger, autoaggression, hurting self, cutting self.
Stage 15 loss.
Stage 5.
Accidents among miners... survivors, all have always worked together
survivor guilt?
When a twin dies intrauterine: Natrium phosphoricum.
Mushrooms often stand in groups.
MUSHROOM: Being an outsider - only the friends understand me.