Xerocomus chrysenteron

Sense proving, 25-10-2019, Haltern am See, Hans Ursula Friedrich.When they start school, cut off from the magic of childhood. Too early a confrontation with the seriousness of life.
Primary school in home village to be moved from village centre to industrial area, signs list against it. Only 30 meters from the school one could look at the cemetery. Entering primary school makes you look straight at the cemetery. The beginning of the end. Children often do not perceive death as so painful. When I was 8 years old I heard on the phone that grandpa had died, I broke the news to my mother in the field and was surprised that she was crying. At the age of 4, she was affected when the neighbour's wife dropped dead in the barn in the morning. That was ominous, that scared me. Magical world of experience. In a preconscious state you couldn't absorb anything. I can't think of anything, I switched off. Couldn't take anything in despite all my efforts. The teacher's words pass me by. Like blank. Can't tell anything about myself. Creativity is cut off. Could only think again when he spoke about the death experiences in childhood. PC glasses, trapped in the virtual world, the magical world is seemingly lived again. Cut off from it at school.
Dream: Not welcome in a high-rise building. Everything obstructed can't go left and can't go right. First left side blocked and still meandering through on the right. Can't get out. As if trapped. The way back is blocked.