Mycena rosea

Sense proving, 25-10-219, Haltern am See, MariaProver 1I felt a deep grief, started weeping and anted to go out. I started walking through the fields, totally disconnected and closed, alone. I was very silent and icy cold. I walked trough the open, frozen fields of cabbage plants. It was as if the plants were silent and bending for my grief, deep despair and hopelessness. I walked as a weeping woman, as if mad. It felt as an open wound, I had the fungus open my open hand. I felt a child was lost and it was my fault, I had not protected it sufficiently. I reached a hollow road through the woods. I smelled the fungus and it was delicious, sweet with fresh radish like smell. It felt healing. Then I felt safe because I was protected by the hollow road. Then I realised that I had not protected the fungus, similar to not having protected my child. A young woman approached me and I felt I had contact with a normal human being by greeting and looking at each other, as if we recognised each other. I was frozen before, as if I was just arrived from another planet. Then I heard the wind in the trees and the birds. Then I realised I was walking on slippers on bare feet, as if I resembled a mad, weird and confused woman. I returned through the fields, but they looked very different, as if they had become alive.Later on I had associations with a family constellation I was in. A child had died, was not protected enough, but the family has not said goodbye. The child feels restless and unconnected. After the family had said goodbye the child felt peaceful and connected.Another association was with a mother weeping for her son going to war.R7P1
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