Lactarius quietus

Sense proving 26-10-2019, Haltern am See, JanProverQuiet, but something is missing, something has got lost. There is a hole in the whole.
Friable.
Buttress in a church, to make big roofs possible.
It feels as if being split from my colleague, companion, wife or friend. It is as if the relationship is a long distance one, like for a sailor, fisherman or long distance trucker.
A cup, a barrel. It symbolizes the drinking of the bitter cup. The bitterness of life, of being separated form the spirit, the whole and not being connected anymore. The bitterness reminds me of Stage 13.
Phase 5.
Silver series.
An image of a man pointing into the distance, the future. The future has to come and then it will be good, he thinks. He lives in the future in order to avoid the grief of the now and past. He is working hard to forget his grief from childhood, the poverty and the pain of being a n orphan and adopted.