Hygrophoropsis aurantiaca

Sense proving 26-10-2019, Haltern am See, Jan Scholten, Monika Lang.ProverAn umbrella. Someone is finding shelter under it. He becomes smaller and smaller and the umbrella becomes bigger and bigger, endlessly. The person disappears in the end, or as good as totally. It symbolizes the drowning and disappearing of a person under the big social powers, the churches and kings.
A big building, like a station, or a official building in eastern European communistic countries, a bit stalinistic, square. It symbolizes the same social powers. One can only adapt in order to be safe and protected. It reminds of Stage 2 and Phase 2.
The smell of the fungus is wee and still sharp, pricking in my nose.
Hay fever.
Gold series, big powers and states,
Powerless anger, as if paralysed.
Big and small is relative and can easily alternate.
Headache, on the temple and side, more left than right, a inward pressing pain, worse from thinking too much, worry too much.
Aversion to do something, to exert myself as I feel powerless. It is already difficult enough.