Author: Jan Scholten
Ideas are closely watched Broken relationship
Critical towards creativity Mother Child
Criticised on their talents Care Nurturing
Adapting their ideas Attention
Silent Attention seeking
Feeling you are closely watched as an artist, scientist, doctor, or mother.
Uncertain about the combination of creativity and motherhood.
Judging your mother on her artistic talents.
An artistic but critical mother.
Appreciation of mystic nurturing.
Uncertain about your unique care.
Looking for your own space with regard to care and religion.
Overwhelmed by mother’s ideas.
Remaining passive while being hurt by your mother.
A silent mother.
Stubborn ways of dealing with attention.
Essence: feeling closely watched as an artist and mother.
Feeling watched as an artist and mother
Their achievements have to be two fold, i. e. both as an artist and as a mother. They feel as if they are being watched and that others will say they are not doing well enough.
Uncertain about the combination of creativity and motherhood
They can be very uncertain whether the combination of motherhood and artistic performance will go well together. They tend to feel that motherhood doesn’t leave them enough time for their creative pursuits. This makes them feel inferior, as if they will never be good enough. They want to be a perfect mother and a perfect artist at the same time, an ideal that they find difficult to realise. Hence their feeling that others are commenting on them, finding them inadequate both as a mother and as an artist.
An artistic but critical mother
They could have had a mother who was very critical, making them feel they would never reach her standard, perhaps even ridiculing their efforts. This has made them very uncertain about their own talents. Their mother could also have been uncertain about her own talents, or never have been in a position to develop her own talents.
Later on these people might start to treat their mother with the same disdain, criticising her talents out of revenge for being made to feel useless when they were younger.
Overwhelmed by care
Another situation is that of a child being overwhelmed by a mother who never allows her children any space to develop their own ideas or talents. When these children grow up they are likely to feel overwhelmed by their caring instincts for others, either for their own children, or for patients they are taking care of. They tend to sacrifice everything, keeping nothing for themselves.
Caring is to them a means of being independent and they can be very stubborn in their ideas about how it should be done.
A silent mother
As a mother they can also be very closed, unwilling to make contact with others. They are silent and tend to live in their own world. This is because they feel they have very little to offer as a mother. They have so many negative ideas about themselves and about motherhood that they would rather remain silent about the whole subject.
Excluded by your mother
The theme can also have been a part of their own upbringing. Their mother having been a silent mother who kept everyone at a distance, especially her children.
Fears: heights, narrow spaces, performance, speeches, alone, water, danger.
Dreams: heights, falling, water, sea, waves, drowning, children, mother, disease, death of friends and relations.
Irritability: aggressive < humiliation.
Mood: haughty, sensitive, emotional, complaining, pitiful, crying.
Hobbies: music, piano.
Professions: art critic,artist, painter, sculptor, actor, writer, singer, musician, scientist, doctor, priest, bishop, medicine man, vicar, governor, secretary, representative, advertising agent, ‘public relations’, top sportsman, - woman, teacher.
Causes: disasters, humiliation, hurt.
Weather: cold, cold feet, < cold !! and undressing, cold feet and back, < damp !!, < wet head; > outside, < draught; hot flushes, >> warm wraps.
Time: < 3 am and 11 pm, gradual appearance and disappearance; < winter.
Desires: beer, brandy, bread, milk, salt, starch.
Food: > eating, < alcohol.
Menses: profuse; < before, during or after menses; << after pregnancy, <<< menopause; swollen and painful breasts before menses.
Sleep: sleepy; sleeplessness < easily frightened; difficulty falling asleep
Physical: < motion and walking !!, > lying down; touch. <<< accidents; <- dark, -> light.
Cancer. Weakness; bruised pains, itching.
Dry mucus membranes.
Congestion with fullness, swelling and pulsating, of head, face, heart and lungs << excitement.
Headache starting from neck, spreading to head, >> warm wraps. Thumping pains with desire to bang head against the wall.
Eye complaints; inflammations, visual disturbances.
Face red, livid, congested << exertion and motion.
Colds, with watery discharge and loss of smell.
Voice problems; hoarseness, loss of voice, stammering.
Lung complaints, suffocative feeling in chest.
High blood pressure, cerebral haemorrhages, heart complaints, angina pectoris. The heart feels suffocated as from a heavy weight. Varices.
Stomach pains, pressing, > eating. < walking.
Diarrhoea with continuous urging at night, sits on the toilet all the time; yellow and watery.
Constipation: large, hard stools, difficult to pass, causing burning pain in anus, > lying down. Abdomen full and distended.
Problems with ovaries and testes and sexual organs in general.
Neck problems, stiffness, pains in arms.
Sprained ankles!! with oedema. Gout.
Osteoporosis in leg, especially thighs !!, necrosis and swelling; sciatica.
Eczema, wet, itching and burning, on face. Skin eruptions on chest and arms, red spots, << sun. Vesicles and ulcers on lips; herpes.
DD: Silicon series, Silver series, Stage 2 and 17, Amylum nitricum, Arnica, Barium carbonicum, Belladonna, Glonoinum, Hepar sulphuris, Lachesis, Magnesium muriaticum, Mezerium,Nitric acid, Nux vomica, Rathania, Ruta, Silica, Sulphur, Thuja, Veratrum viride.