Sphagnum palustre

Case by Jan ScholtenShe is a woman of 50 and has had financial problems all her life. She is an artist and does not sell enough of her art to make a living. Due to this she has to move very often. She moved 23 times in her life. She never felt home somewhere.
She is very warm and friendly and tends to take care of others. Often she tried to help her brother who is an alcoholic, but he does not want to to be rescued. His house is a mess, he had many accident and his eye sight is going down.
This has all to do with a very bad youth. Both parents were using much alcohol and had many fights. She was always the nice girl, trying to silent and helping.
She gives the feeling as she has never landed on earth. She confirms this feelingAnalysisMoss: never somewhere at home, always on the move.
Hydrogen series: never landed on earth.
Prescription: Sphagnum palustre, 3-331.11.01Follow up by emailIt has now been 1 week since I was with you.
Emotionally I have had the most intense week since? I have a weird lump when swallowing in my neck,there is a hard something,not a gland. Maybe it is something "wrong", I will have it looked at next week,hopefully soon with ultrasound ? because it is also changing fast. I did not tell last week,left it out, pushed it away too but it seems to have become more again.Partly with this feeling, fact, an unknown cause I have fallen into very deep and very old grief which I probably never cried so deeply about before.
In the past few days I had a number of attacks in which I cried myself completely empty, especially whining and shaking. I hardly dared to make a sound. I was back in the past.That happened also in the past, where I stopped crying. I suspect my root perhaps broke off or retracted. Continuous fear and threat from problems of my parents, when their drinking and strange behavior started. As a 7 year old I was baby sitting at night hours of " baby sitting" outside my bed until it was. not okay. So many times I felt miserable, with stomach aches, heavy head. I was a serious girl, but shed no tears.
Because with both parents I could and would not go to them, It was absolutely not safe.Pffffff...I'm dead tired of it, it's also death energy somewhere. I still look like a corpse, I don't recognize myself in the mirror.At the same time something happened this afternoon,
I feel again that everything is Love, my mind is quieter and my heart more open.
It comes and goes with waves, but I hope that this was the deepest point.
I feel that this is very essential.
Have really gone through a kind of death.