Brachythecium rutabulum

3-333.57.13: Brachythecium rutabulumIntroductionEnormous will to survive despite adverse circumstances. The situation of a vulnerable child, who wants to play and be innocent, but feels he has to overcome the hardship of life. A parent can be violent and aggressive, the other pushy and demanding.MindSense of time lost, extreme; time passes quickly, time extends, takes long, there is no end.
Childlike, childish, naïve; foolish
Dream: baby in a highchair, splashing food over myself and babbling in baby talk.
Playing, children songs, rolling up, hiding like a child.
Responsibility not needed
Operation trauma.
Stubborn; stamping my foot.
Mind limited, goes blank, thinking limited; dull, mindless, stupid, like Down syndrome, no thoughts
Closed, reserved, don’t want to give anything away, hidden and concealed; unapproachable and closed up.
Ensures my survival; I keep it with me; rolling up, hiding
I want to force you to show your true nature; I am able to endure, I will not open myself too quickly.
Unapproachable, closed up; hiding, concealing; showing nothing; something might be discovered, but nothing will come out; not showing the secret.
Overcoming resistance; Struggling my way through.
Unmanageable, suddenly resistance, blunt, too strenuous
Hold his ground; fight for survival; I am sure I will succeed.
Exhausted, strained.
Simple, very below down; simple joy.
Feeling unworthy; totally subordinated; totally simple and frugal and undemanding.
Sadness, resignation, anger.
Vulnerable, soft, like an open oyster; world feels rude; exposed to everything, < rubbing.
Desiree to be treated careful, tender, cautious; I want to caress; very feminine and soft.
Very sad and hurt; please, don’t hurt me; soft, open, vulnerable.
Alone in a group, in this world, totally, no connection, like cut off, giving up.
Tired, stunning, indifferent; desire to close eyes and sleep.
Saving the earth; protect the earth; deep knowledge; Mother Gaia, a wise core.
Alive and kicking, pulsating with life.GeneralWeather: chilly, < cold.
Sensation: heavy, empty.
Sleep: sleepless !; sleepy!.BodyGeneral: fatigue!!
Head: headache, fontanel, back of the head, extending to left teeth; dull headache at the cortex; heavy; empty feeling, behind forehead.
Eyes: watering; twitching; vision unsharp.
Nose: itching; dripping; sneezing; smell sweet, sour, fishy, unclear, green, of ocean.
Face: itching on the chin, muscles feel heavy.
Heart: aware of it.
Stomach: sour belching.
Abdomen: stitching liver region; pain like a flash of lightning down to the pelvis.
Back: vibration until the spinal column; pain in the neck.
Limbs: cannot feel my legs, heavy; dump feeling; right arm feels from light to heavy; pain at the left hand; pain in the left blade of the shoulder; cold feet, going up.
Skin: itching of scalp.