Cornus rugosa

A woman of 45 years, her face and voice are full of action, caused by pain for years, she is still moving carefully. Dressed old-fashioned, she is sober and strict. Her body shows tightness and a kind of pitiless, out of her long suffering. She has creative hobbies. She is intense talking and can't stop talking about her problems and of telling you her thoughts. She has had a tough year, after a faltering marriage, and problems at work, it is all a lot and busy, at work the are undermining her position, it gives tension, what took her attention for years, and last year her son was a problem, he had much resistance, didn't want to go to school, wanted to die, and had violent rages. She was working on it day and night, approaching agencies, talking a lot, let it not go. She was always on standby, but now when it calmed down she collapsed. She can't relax now, even though he is doing well. At work, there is a huge crisis, so she is now on the board, it exploded there, and she did a lot for it, and she pulled coals out of the fire. It is unsafe for her from the board, and that reminds her of home in the past: her parents had a lot of fights, and unpredictable outbursts under an authoritarian banner. ‘How do I avoid being as scared as I used to be, as a 7-year-old child? How do I avoid breaking down on that? Midst the scheming, I do my best to glue things together’. Her body is doing well, she can do now a lot of exercise, and biking and walking are possible again. Previously she had severe back pain. Both at home and work: she is the positive force, that has to do with accountability, it always means action. The family culture has priority and causes a lot of problems. With coming into practice and following me to the treatment room, she almost runs into me, more because of being completely absorbed in her actions than out of awkwardness, being completely in her actions, without contact or reflection. This may have grown from the home and work situation. Her attitude and outlook are also like this.
She is persistent and persistent with initiative: ‘Oh yes, I only take action when I feel like it, not because I have to’. She is constantly on alert, and constantly have to guard reasonableness. She awakes at 5 in the morning or at night. At home with my family, she makes it very clear what she stand for, she has to do that for any result and her own space. The old feelings of insecurity play a role, and her feeling at work is having nothing to offer, as the management also tells her, in words and expression 'You can't do anything'. Old feelings are about her youth: at home it was unpredictable and dictatorial. Insecurity can be so strong, like panic, you have to flee, and the world perishes. Often on the forehand, she want to give up, after preparing a lecture, which otherwise goes very well, once she has start. She feel threatened and powerless. Energy is good, she can move mountains. Dreams are about work, about a quest in the dark. Dreams about postponing everything, not getting there.AnalysisGoldseries, Series 6: Accountability, leadership, theme of authority.
Silverseries, Series 5: Work as a teacher, transferring, ideas, and ethics.
Lamiidae. Accountability, transfer, being part of the group..
Phase 1: I don't belong, no permanent contract, I can't do it, they don't like me, I don't belong
feeling unsafe, panic, compare Stage 1.
Phase 6: no appreciation, and giving all attention and energy. The powerlessness of Phase 6 was caused by the panic of Phase 1.
Stage 8: hard time, always forcing herself and the situation.
Prescription: Cornus rugosa MK.follow upAfter two weeks she radiates calmness, and gentleness for years, even sitting relaxed and slightly slumped: it is a metamorphosis. Her face is now calm, the skin no longer the sallow of years past. That overpowering menace is gone, and she has to get used to that. It always felt like ‘a flood,’ ‘life is at
stake’, you have to get out of here.
That feeling is no longer there, despite the tension at work, which is undiminished. She always had that feeling: angry, powerless, panicked, always being prepared for criticism, for rejection, for an attack to get rid of her, and so on, always a tension: are they angry, when will things go wrong? Now she has peace and is working on what is achievable, and it grew that way. She now realizes when someone says something, from which emotion it is, understand them and can adjust it to that. Also, her son is no longer a problem for her, she clarify everything quickly and calmly, to avoid tension. Now she can listen calmly. Before, her agitation caused her to talk even more, and to be busy. She is better at making her position clear and sticking to it.
Firm, tight in ideas, and disciplined with the family. They don't notice any doubt or guilt in me now and see that there is no room. Don't feel pushed down anymore.
She no longer has the idea in everything that adversity is the result of her being stupid. She used to keep putting everything off, but now she makes lists of chores, but still agitation when I'm not on schedule. She still look forward to it and don't know where to start. In the past it took years to finish a project, more than a year to pay me or clean up at home, problems by not seeing it all through, wanting to organize everything first, and having no idea or overview of that. She is going to sleep better and better. Dream: something with birds, beautiful. Now she is very sure of attitude and in conversation, till the moment of someone knocking on the door, disturbed for a moment, she goes busy with the laces, meanwhile babbling on, for a moment again completely 'away' and in own dimension, after which she sits down for a moment with arms and legs crossed (as before always), after a few minutes she relaxes again. Years before she was confused and had no concentration.
Clarke mention about Cornus circinata, a synonym used in several books: forgetful, drowsiness, loss of mental and physical energy, unable to concentrate attention, mind: confusion.
In the years after this, she remains quiet, starts to rearrange her life, and remains the pivot on which
everything turns in the family. The theme of Stage 8 as an working property.