A 33-year-old woman, she is divorced, and caring her children. She is neutral-built, friendly, and gives the impression of weakness, and sustaining, she is very pale and haggard. Her soft, though lively voice lacks color and depth; it sounds as if it's coming from far away. She is distant, very controlled, and cautious, though she clearly knows what she wants. It's as if she doesn't fully inhabit her body, but lives and experiences from her head.
Her problem is extreme fatigue; "I literally can't stand on my feet anymore." She sits upright, playing with her hair while talking, keeping contact with her large, dark eyes. "Look at me," she radiates with an almost ethereal softness, but it seems impossible to get close to her. Her cry for attention and connection doesn't reach the world, doesn't extend beyond her own experience; everything is so powerless. Her eyelids twitch, a regular tic of squinting, which she's unaware of. She speaks carefully, searchingly, almost tentatively, in short or half-finished sentences. Last year, her ex-husband left, and she took care of the children and went back to work. The preceding years were emotionally difficult; the relationship was bad, with sleep deprivation because the children weren't sleeping through the night. She studied, worked, and raised the children, taking care of everything, before her husband left. Things were "always bad," she says, her face and posture revealing that there had been little joy during the relationship. It's a statement, a fate, she seems to have endured. "I've exhausted myself; my husband was often angry and grumpy. Back then, I did everything 'automatically,' now I become a little more 'awake,' more myself." She just kept going, doing what needed to be done. She's often mentally preoccupied, as if it were an automatic response, and then she doesn't realize she's tired. Now working isn't possible, and at home, she can only lie down. It's a strange physical fatigue, a feeling of 'I can't handle it,' as if she's been out all night, feeling unrealistically tired. She has to block out light and sound; she feels it permeating her body. Her voice remains very small, "I don't know, I'll just let it go. I don't really know where this is going. I don't really feel like it, and I don't really want to do much either. It'll all be all right." Her mind keeps racing. There are so many responsibilities. Before she had children, she was a student without any responsibility, "I loved that." Later, she also found her work wonderful and enjoyable; now she wants freedom, a vacation. Angustera gives a slight improvement,
Berberis vulgaris and
Ruta graveolens do nothing.
Oxytropis campestris give relieve for some months.
AnalysisFabaceae: having to do many obligatory, being unable to do anything else, no balance between burdens and pleasures. Continuing is the only option. Fatigue is a primary complaint, an expression of the disturbance (not a result).
Series 4 we can see in ‘surviving’, ‘friends and school’ as living world.
Stages 3-5: Doubt, she gets nowhere, doesn't form any thoughts, it's unclear to her whether it will lead to anything. Trying, taking a step, without being able to see what the second step might be, or whether it will even exist. She moves and lives like walking in the dark,.
Stage 4: Her cautiousness in speaking, moving, closing off by letting a thought or line of conversation come to a halt, a stillness after a cautious liveliness, going within after creating an opening in contact are characteristics of
Stage 4 indications.
Before she has had three jobs; she starts one, tries it out, but then notices (with some surprise) that it doesn't suit her, is too intense (
Stage 4). Her work is what she "really enjoys" (
Fabaceae).
Fabales: In her youth, she lived in a boring village, then came a pleasant student life full of enjoyment, and then she slowly slipped into a new situation with a lot of responsibility, no time or place for fun, lots of problems, and things she just did "automatically." Unable to stop the responsibility, not even thinking about it, just noticing that she was exhausted.
Oxytropis lambertii: The weakness, the inability to stand on her feet.
Stage 4: Troubles in starting and stopping movement.
Prescription:
Oxytropis lambertii C30.
Follow-upThings have suddenly improved considerably; she feels more awake and clearer. On the days when she is fit, there are more ear complaints. There was a bad case of the flu; everyone around her was sick, but she wasn't. Usually, when something was going on, it was a long-term illness. She has become assertive and finally told people the truth; previously, she was indulgent (
Phase 2). She can now do housework and cycle, and when she's tired and lies down, she rests quickly. Physically, she's still tired for the first few weeks. She's been very depressed a few times, which is completely new to her (now she can feel and work things out).
Dreams: not catching the plane. She can now be different with her ex; she no longer gives in to his anger, "I can tell him things now, I have more control over it, I'm no longer so drained." Her right ear continues to hurt for some weeks; it has been painful for years, ever since she was unhappy in the relationship. Her energy is increasing again, she's rebuilding her work, is no longer sick, and has a new relationship that's going well. Sometimes, mild bladder complaints, just like before. After three months, no more appointments are needed. The cause was a lack of joy.