631.11.01 Acorus calamus, CaseWoman, 50, tired.
She has burnout, fatigue, is very tired, and cannot work, for the past 15 years. She is very anxious, especially when she is with other people, she fears she will do things wrong. She has to use all her energy to keep herself together. With other people, she fears people seeing that she cannot cope, that she could faint. She does not dare to talk about herself. She feels as if she has no space, everything is felt as a threat, and she has developed hyperventilation. She is unsure, not grounded. She has always felt worthless, sad, unsafe, she is an emotional wreck. Her world has become smaller and smaller.
Her body feels empty. Her life is felt as too heavy, full of tension. When she thinks about problems she gets a pain in her stomach, a kind of ball that contracts. She cannot breathe and shivers and contracts, becoming smaller.
Her parents divorced when she was 10. She felt as if she was left alone, it felt as if her world was ruined, she was weeping inside.
Her older brother terrorised the family, he was aggressive, teasing and humiliating her, ruining her plants. He had depression and committed suicide in his twenties.
Her mother was powerless. She always helped her mother, as her nurse. It exhausted her, she felt overwhelmed by her demands. It was a reversal of roles. She could not handle her mother always concealing problems, denying there were problems and difficulties. She feels her mother has taken her father away from her.
She feels as if she has no space; this feeling is triggered by the least trifle. She feels very lonely.
As a child she was very shy and obedient, hiding under the table when there were visitors.
Dreams: always ending badly; lost in the desert; people walking over her; travelling without a suitcase.
Fear: failure, fainting, people, crowds, outside, alone.
She likes plants very much, especially roses, kirengeshoma palmata, trees, plantains.
Colour preference: 22DE.
She has sleeplessness; herpes labialis, stomach pain, bloated abdomen, indigestion, hyperventilation, hypertension, asthma.
She had grinding of teeth, aphthae, recurrent cystitis.
AnalysisHydrogen series: having no space; body feels empty.
Carbon series: worthless; unsafe; body feels empty.
Follow upAfter
Acorus calamus MK she went through a bad time, reliving some bad periods in her life. First she got hyperventilation. After that she got swollen lips and gums, grinding her teeth. She relived her brother’s suicide. She wept often. Her whole life felt like a disaster but she knew she had to go on with it.
After a few weeks she started to feel better in herself, feeling as if she had more space. She could talk more easily. After a few repetitions of the remedy she managed to have a real conversation with her mother, and felt that her mother was listening to her. She told her mother how she had experienced her youth and her mother felt sympathy. It was an enormous relief and a turnaround in their relationship.
Over a year she becomes much freer. She takes the initiative and has the energy to do things.