Canna indica A 75-year-old woman, she feels desperate, ‘out of order’, she seems lost, detached from her surroundings, with large bags under her eyes and vacant eyes. She's looking for support, having recently separated from her second partner; the children are keeping off all contact. Every day is a struggle to stay afloat. She knows she should accept it, but she agonizes over the "why." Now she lives alone, and the good thing is, now she doesn't have to hold back. She does nothing but the grocery shopping, the cats, and the plants. Her mind isn't right yet; it's a gray haze. She has to keep herself going all day long, and in the evenings, she's tired and dizzy and falls asleep at 21 hours. The relationship hasn't been good for years, because they are very different: she is highly sensitive, and he is emotionless. For years, she felt dependent on his peace and stability. The worst part was that recently he messed around with a woman, and then it was over for her. She tries to shake it off and move on.
Dreams: she's always tidying up.
Dreams about snails, about a spider, about having to go up or down a building. Now and then, she gets sharp pains in her head; she has high blood pressure but wants to reduce her medication; she thinks medication is "junk." She has an arrhythmia, feels the throbbing, and she feels the congestion inside. She still harbors a childhood fear: "that she's not doing it right." She never had a "me," a personality, she just took care of everyone. Her childhood was worthless; there was no warmth, no love. Her father was dominant and aggressive, hitting her with a carpet beater, and her mother was timid, afraid he'd get angry. There was always yelling at home. At school, she felt alone; she was terrified of people. Even as a child, she thought, "All those angry people, I'll do it alone." She lived in a cocoon, thinking, "I shouldn't have been born." When the children were little, she divorced. They were never able to talk; he never took responsibility, and she harbors a lot of anger. She can't talk about it, she can't release it. She wants to curse him out, "fireworks," it makes her restless. The divorce is never closed off; she feels like a bomb. She has to force herself to keep from "exploding." It's a battle in her head. She's never been able to lean on anyone. She often feels like she's walking on the edge, like she doesn't belong in life. In recent weeks, her arms and sometimes her head have started shaking. She wants to move on with her life; she clings to that, but she can't talk to caregivers because too much comes up. The children haven't wanted to have contact with her for years; they got angry when she came to talk, "So what?" Cynara scolimus and
Agave americana gave slight improvement for a few weeks. No reactions from
Passer domesticus,
Quassia amara, Capsella bursa pastoris, Phalenopsis gigantea, and
Heliconia bihai.
AnalysisSilicon series,
Series 3: Problem and pain lie within the family she grew up in and her own family. Relationship problems, this is also her "world," which she consciously engages with, and which defines and is important to her. Childhood fear.
Liliidae 3-633.00.00: family, heart, longing for contact.
Zingiberales 3-633.50.00
Phase 5: feeling pressure, tension, wanting to continue in her process, exploding, aggression at home, angry people, feeling driven, and the need to care for the children herself. Aggressive father.
Muscaceae 3-633.51.00
Phase 1: alone, not belonging (as a burden), not wanting to belong (as a solution), not having to be born, anxious, fearful mother, exhaustion. Never had a self.
Stage 17: loss, grief, walking on the edge.
Prescription:
Canna indica C30.
Follow-upWithin two weeks, she becomes calmer. She can now avoid tension more, keep it at bay, which reduces her emotional state. She feels she's moving in the right direction. She can now have conversations with a counselor. For the first time, she's spontaneously sharing her pain points (included in the anamnesis above, before she was hiding her emotions by not telling). She needs to express herself, and she can only do that through her emotions. Her eyes are more brilliant now. Taking care of the children has always been her priority. The tremors have subsided. She also notices that her pets are calmer; they now come to visit her. She dreams about "rubble," "remnants." Her mind will become much calmer in the coming months, and she can now also let things slide. Her energy is increasing. The following months she is fine.