Acorus calamus

631.11.01 Acorus calamus, CaseWoman, 40, kidney pain.
She has peritonitis, easily bleeding gums.
Her respiration is shallow, she cannot breathe deeply.
Her parents divorced when she was less than a year old. She was raised by her grandmother until the age of 8. Then she was transferred to her mother’s house where her older sisters lived. That was a nightmare. They were against her, it was open war. Her mother always denied what her sisters did to her. She was ridiculed when she was in terror, in the dark, with a fear of death.
She has had relationships with various men, who abused her. The thing they all had in common was that they were chaotic in their lives. She worked to pay for their studies, their businesses, financing their houses, organising their jobs and work. She is easily manipulated. When a man is a little bit nice to her, she gives everything away. People can do anything with her.
She feels very lonely, as if she is alone in the world. She feels ashamed of herself, she has a very low self-image and an inferiority complex.
In fact she is very capable. She can work very well, but she always does it out of sight of others. She cannot defend herself. She is very unsure and easily feels powerless, although she does not show it.
She is depressed. She has existential fears, a fear of losing everything. She fears she will only be an empty shell if she loses control, that she will lose her mind. She fears she will be her mind. She has to control herself with all her force.
Fear: dark, monsters under the bed as a child.
Dream: bicycling through a war and bombardments.
She is very sympathetic with animals, she sees them as defenseless, and sees herself in them.AnalysisHydrogen series: chaotic; easily manipulated; gives everything away.
Carbon series: fear: dark, monsters; inferiority complex.
Silicon series: relationships.Follow upAfter Acorus calamus MK she gets a stomach cramp after hearing stories about rape and masturbation. She has cramps in her hands and feet. The day after that she has heartache and is emotional, weeping easily. The day after that she starts feeling better. A month later she has changed quite a lot, she is more in touch with herself.