Author: Jan Scholten
Stage 5 Iron series
Preparing Task Work Duty
Advance guard Craft Use
Proposal Doubt Ability Perfectionist
Postponing Routine Order Rules
Reservation Evasive Control Exam
Premature Observed Criticised
Alternating Failure Guilt Crime
Tantalising Torturing Pursued Tried
Hesitating to put their abilities into practice.
Tortured by the idea that they can fail.
Alternately working and not working.
Postponing their task.
Tortured by their perfectionism.
Evading their task.
Success alternating with failure.
Strength alternating with weakness.
Preparations for the job.
Essence: Hesitating to put their abilities into practice.
Hesitating to put their abilities into practice
Although they have made a choice about what they are going to do, they still keep wondering whether this is what they really want. They make plans and they feel a strong urge to do well, but in the back of their mind there is always the question: ‘Will I manage?’ This continuous doubt is very strong, and manifests itself in all areas of their life: ’Did I choose the right profession?’ ‘Am I intelligent enough, good enough, beautiful enough?’.
Tortured by their fear of failure
Always this nagging doubt: ‘I probably won’t make it’. Always the same theme that they will probably make mistakes, be blamed, fail their mission etc. It also comes back in their dreams where they just miss the train, or can’t find the telephone. They don’t want to take responsibility for their choice because they feel they will fail anyway. And when they do fail they feel very guilty.
The cause usually lies in the way they have been brought up. Their father is successful and very strict. The child gets the message that he must do everything he can to please other people, particularly his parents. He should be good and kind and successful. The child doesn’t dare to resist and tries his best to live up to this picture of the perfect child. They don’t even know what or who they are doing it for, they are just trying to be good and successful. Inevitably they lose connection with who they are and what they want for themselves. The message of ‘be successful’ may have been slightly ambiguous in itself, in the sense of ‘but don’t you dare be more successful than your father!’
Tortured by their perfectionism
Their goals are usually very high, a bit too high! They want to be good, even perfect, and want to achieve something big. But their ideals are almost impossible to live up to. They never feel they have done enough; they can’t find a realistic goal to work towards.
Success alternating with failure
‘Success’ and ‘failure’ are two key phrases they use a lot. It is typical of Vanadium that success and failure follow each other in rapid succession. They want to be successful, so they start off with great dedication which leads to initial successes. But their goals are impossibly high, coupled with a deep-down feeling that they cannot or should not succeed, so sooner or later this success is followed by failure.
They may also be afraid to succeed, because if you succeed your next goal should be even higher and this could prove to be too much.
Evading their task
When they think they can’t reach the goal they have in mind they may give up altogether. If they can’t succeed anyway they might as well sabotage the whole job and fail properly. Throwing all their old principles overboard they will turn round and make a complete mess of it.
But knowing that they have really spoilt it now, the old urge to succeed begins to play up again. And so it goes on in a vicious circle. Once they realise the sort of pattern they are in, rather than breaking it they may feel it is not worth carrying on. Any success leads to failure again, so why bother?
Alternately working and not working
The same theme can be seen in their job, alternately working and not working. One day they will be on time, the next day they are late. Nothing ever reaches a conclusion; the job is always postponed to the next day.
Strength alternating with weakness
Another duality you often hear them talking about is ‘strength’ and ‘weakness’. They feel they have to be strong, but they are afraid of doing things wrong and therefore turn out to be weak. This lack of self confidence makes them indecisive. Their very high ideals are bound to lead to failure anyway, like the junkie who wants to stop taking drugs but feels that he can’t suddenly stop, so he won’t try.
They are usually a bit weak and nervous. They are easily influenced and don’t quite know what to do. They would rather not grow up so as not to have to take responsibilities. The other side of this picture is someone who is very stubborn and carries on regardless with his plans. It is usually the small unimportant things they want to push through. It gives them a feeling of strength. They might get into the habit of thinking up little rules about the things they should and should not do. It gives them some sort of grip on the situation.
Postponing their task
They want to prepare thoroughly for the task ahead. They often feel they haven’t done enough ground work, they haven’t looked at all possible angles of the job yet. So before they make a start they had better look at the whole thing once more. In other words, the job gets postponed. You could say that this means they have failed, but on the other hand you can’t fail if you haven’t even started, so once again we have this duality.
Alternating control: anorexia- bulimia
There is a strong tendency towards anorexia and bulimia. Here we find the same themes again: feeling good when you have succeeded, feeling bad and guilty after a binge. The binges are a way of compensating for the lack of warmth and support. The same goes for other addictions they may have.
Fears: failure, criticism, opposition, observed, anticipation, being late, missing the boat, arteriosclerosis, cockroaches.
Dreams: being late, missing the train, futile efforts, paralysis.
Mood: alternating, happy on success, gloomy on failure; soft, yielding, easily influenced, easy crying; hard, -> control, obstinate < trifles, restless.
Mental: manic depressive psychosis, anorexia alternating with bulimia.
Contacts: warmth, company.
Weather: cold, cold hands and feet. Raynaud’s syndrome.
Time: < 7 am.
Desires: liquorice, sweet.
Menses: little or none; < before menses; < ovulation.
Retarded growth. Cancer. Paralysis.
Teeth problems; tongue discolouration green !.
Tonsillitis and sore throats, coughing up small, greenish-yellow, bitter mucus. Thyroid problems.
Pneumonia, bronchitis, dyspnoea, tiredness, weakness, sore chest; colds with sneezing (Dreisbach).
Stomach and bowel affections.
Degeneration of liver and cancer. Diabetes. Disturbed fat and glucose metabolism.
Pain in ovaries. Lactation problems.
Sciatica, osteoporosis. Restless, itching legs.
DD: Iron series, Stage 5, Anacardium, Barium carbonicum, Carcinosin, Hypophysinum anterior, Ignatia, Lithiums, Lycopodium, Pulsatilla, Thuja.
DD Titanium: has only just started and doesn’t really know what awaits him. Vanadium has more idea of what awaits him and he is afraid; he begins with extensive preparations and postpones the real task.
DD remedies containing Vanadium: Anethum graveolens, Petroselinum, Piper nigrum, Raphanus, mushrooms, seaweed.
DD substances that influence the metabolism: Phosphoricums, Cystine, Cysteine, Glutathion, Glucose, Vitamin C and E, Saccharum officinale.