Author: Jan Scholten
Antimonium Crudum = Sulphuratum
Loss of creativity Love
Silenced Marriage Partner
Disdain Insulted Self love Egotism
Observed Touched Jealousy
Contrary ‘no’ Joy Satisfaction
Sacrifice Martyr Harmony Aesthetics
Loss of creativity means loss of love.
Loss of creativity compensated by love.
Using love in the fight against a threatened loss of success.
Love is like poison.
Contrary towards your partner.
A partner who is contrary.
Silenced by your partner.
Your partner doesn’t hear you.
Sacrificing yourself because you love someone.
Love feels like an insult.
Loss of talent leads to laziness.
Loss of talent leads to neglect.
Essence: Loss of creativity means loss of love.
Loss of creativity means loss of love
They feel they are going to lose their creativity and with it the love and respect of their friends and family. When they are not famous anymore their loved one is bound to lose interest, so they think. So they always have to be different, to produce something that goes right against all the common expectations, just to catch the attention and make sure people will still take notice of them.
Loss of creativity compensated by love
A variation on this theme is that they start to look for compensation or their loss of fame. The loss of their former fame and glory isn’t so bad as long as their partner still loves them. They begin to build a very romantic picture of love, and can get quite sentimental about it. They may even sacrifice themselves completely, all for the sake of love, because they couldn’t bear to lose it. Their partner may also throw him into the fight out of love for his wife, to try and rekindle the creative fire.
But their relationship isn’t always a bed of roses. They tend to expect so much of their partner that he or she will find this impossible to live up to. But they experience this as if the partner is unwilling to cooperate and is doing that out of sheer stubbornness. They think that their partner is trying to silence them and stop them from doing what they want. This creates an atmosphere of jealousy and because they feel they are being obstructed they retaliate by going against the grain themselves and refusing every offer of help. They get so upset that they will be cross when you even look a them, everything is considered as a huge insult.
They have a tendency to wear very romantic clothes. But when they feel unloved or unappreciated they develop a preference for shocking clothes. They turn into punks who like to have their hair standing up in spikes, who walk around in tatty clothes and colours that don’t match.
Loss of talent leads to neglect
When things really go wrong and their talents really aren’t appreciated any longer they go all the way to be difficult and against the grain. They feel so insulted that they don’t want anyone to look at them or touch them. A love disappointment may be the cause of such a state and they become moody or lazy or they neglect their artistic talents. They may even become suicidal in such situations.
Fears: heights, narrow spaces, shows, performances, suffocating, choking !!, alone, disease, death, evil, future, approached, poisoned, ghosts, poverty, ugliness, dirt, freedom, bathing, water, noise.
Dreams: heights, falling, dinosaurs, witches, dwarfs, poison, being poisoned, mutilation, disease, wounded, accident, death, fire, pig, erotic, quarrels, anger, being called, dead people, old friends, country of birth, party.
Delusions: mutilations, dead people, someone calling them.
Irritability: moody, obstinate, grumpy, touchy, angry, hitting, kicking, biting, scratching, pulling hair, stamping feet, throwing things, yelling; <- consolation; < humiliation, << looked at, << touched !!, being held; anger leads to coughing, vomiting or holding breath.
Mood: haughty, cheerful, ecstatic, hysterical, pulling faces, tricking, humorous; apathetic, changeable !!, hyper sensitive !!; discon-tented, crying, desperate, depressed, melancholic, suicidal with a gun, > thinking and dreaming about mother country and old friends.
Mental: dull, dreamy, intelligent,wise, intuitive, delirious, dementia.
Contacts: <-, silent.
Hobbies: music, flute, poetry.
Professions: artist, painter, writer, singer, musician, teacher, scientist, doctor, priest, vicar, bishop, shaman, governor, secretary, representative, advertising agent, public relations officer, top sports man, - woman.
Causes: disasters, humiliation, hurt, loss of loved ones !!, friends or family, insults, shame.
Locality: left !!.
Weather: warm, < heat, > open air; hot flushes; > outside.
Perspiration: easy, < exertion. Stinking.
Time: < 5 am and 11 pm; sudden !!; moonlight, full moon.
Desires: cucumber !!, gherkins, sour !!, raw vegetables!!, fruit !!, alcohol, beer, brandy, pickles, eating, sweet 3), fat, fried, spices, cold drinks.
Aversion: cucumber, gherkins, sour, raw vegetables, fruit, alcohol, fat, egg, bread.
Food: < milk !!, sour !!, wine, alcohol, bread, starch, fruit, stone fruits, cherries, kiwi, strawberries.
Menses: profuse; < before menses.
Sleep: sleepless; deep; frequent waking; < lying in late; sleepy; on stomach; jumpy; grinding teeth.
Physical: < touched !!, < looked at !!, < exertion, > rest; < bathing; > carried upright, <- loud noises, < noise, music, pain.
Sensation of a plug. Cancer.
Burning !! pains. Full, heavy, pulsating feeling.
Discharges are thick, yellow, stinking of rotten eggs.
Coma; fainting << cough.
Weakness, bruised pains, itching.
Headache in forehead, temples and vertex.
Eye complaints: inflammations, visual disturbances, eyelids red.
Ear infections. Redness of ears.
Colds with thin, watery discharge.
Tongue thickly coated white, mouth red.
Voice problems: hoarse, loss of voice, stammering.
Chocking, retching !!.
Lung complaints; bronchitis with yellow, slimy mucus, emphysema; breath holding spells << anger.
Hear and vascular diseases. Varicose veins, heavy legs. Haemorrhages and haematoma.
Stomach problems !!, nausea, vomiting < cough, stomach ulcer, duodenal ulcer; stomach cramps. Belching.
Diarrhoea, constipation. Diarrhoea brown, watery, stinking, putrid, oily.
Problems of genitalia, testes, ovaries, impotency, pain in testes, atrophy of testes and penis. Genitalia small.
Urination painful, drop by drop, difficult.
Pain in joints. Neck problems, stiffness. Pain in arms.
Skin: inflammations with yellow pus.
Bilharzia, sleeping sickness, aleppo boils or oriental boils, black fever or kala azar, veneric granuloma.
Chickenpocks !!; warts, veruca on soles of feet !!.
Cracks in corner of mouth and nose. Boils in face, neck and genitalia.
DD: Silicon series, Silver series, Stage 15 and 16, Chamomilla, Cina, Cuprum, Ipecac, Magnesiums, Mercurius, Plumbum, Sarracenia.