Lophophora williamsii

663.14.17 Lophophora williamsii, CaseWoman, 35, hyperthyreosis.
Her report: “I feel “dead tired”, my eyes feel heavy, I can hardly keep them open, they are dry, as if sand is in them but they also produce a white, burning mucus all the time.
My whole body became itchy, burning and bright red spots came on my skin, that felt warm, fiery and my joints started aching (knees, ankles, hips, fingers) and became oedematous, warm and red too.
The hyperthyreosis came back after I got a flu two times. The first time I got the hyperthyreosis after the loss of a very important friend.
15 years ago I had a severe car accident. I experienced clinical death with beautiful warm feelings of “going home”, being above my body, the certainty that we are much more than we seem. I saw my life, my purpose, my plan for this incarnation, the whole mystical spiritual journey of the soul. I felt beautiful intense, overwhelming cosmic love, that not any word can describe and I chose to live finally.
Before that accident I was already very sensitive and intuitive, with a deep wish to love and to be loved as a core of my being. Being about twenty I was quite depressed even with a thought of suicide because I felt that I could not share that love I have inside. But the accident “took me home” and reminded me of my true mission” and task for this lifetime. I came back with a great treasure in my heart and I started to see people’s energy fields, their thoughts, feelings, their past wounds and the deep essence of their souls that wanted to be expressed through life. My service started then. I had clients from that time all along. I always had love and understanding for people but since that time I learned how to express and share that cosmic eternal love that I received.
I had mononucleosis 4 years ago from the medical study at the university with their focus only on the physical. I got very sick suddenly with a terrible headache, retching, vomiting, almost fainting for 15 months every day. I felt like losing my identity, worthless and stuck. I felt so weak that I could not walk 100 meters.
When I finished the study I felt free and lighter, starting a medical clinic with a few friends. I was working day and night, seeing patients, leading meditation groups. I’ve overused my energies. A year ago I became claustrophobic. I have a fear that if I get sick, I cannot run out, cannot escape. So I do not like being in a crowd or in the cinema I prefer to sit next to the door and the like.
I’ve two big fears. One is the claustrophobia. The other is the fear of loss, which is even deeper. Sometimes I realise that somewhere deep inside I feel very lonely, abandoned and I eagerly long for love and unity. All my relations have been very deep. I’m interested in the depth, the mysterious essence of people. I express my love easily, I like to touch and embrace gently. I think I’m here to teach how to be sincere, true and open in our emotions. Unfortunately I cannot cope with the loss of anyone I love. It can even make me wish for death. As if my life is worthwhile only when I can share my love. I overcompensate that by serving people extremely, just to become important in their lives so they will not leave me. My last memory of that is when I was about 4. I had strong panic attacks when my mother went away in the evening. I was so scared that something would happen to her. The warm tender relation with her was very important for me. And my care of people is quite motherly, unconditional love. I like to share my ideas, spiritual views, emotions. But when I’m really hurt I become numb and prefer to solve it alone. It is very hard for me to ask for help and it is much easier to give than receive. I think communication is very important. I never like to leave conflicts unresolved. I feel very bad and sick in a disharmonious or aggressive atmosphere. ”Relationships are very important. She desires romantic sharing loving relations but people leave her and she even helps them to get away from her. They return after 2 years but then she cannot give them their place back.
She wants to give, feels her worth only when giving. She has the idea that people will only like her when she gives.
I’m no one when I’m not needed.Solar plexus is weak, discomfort << eating. Rumbling and flatulence with cramp in intestines, unbearable from lying after eating.
Stomach pain, cramping, grasping, crushing, < not eating, > motion, + dyspnoea. Nausea and retching, < having no exit.
Heart pain, cramping, grasping, crushing.
Desire: water, swimming, dolphins, nature.
Aversion: cities, crowds, narrow places.Location: right.Weather: <- wet cold, -> sea.
Time: < 5 pm.
Desire: cheese; thirsty ! < night.
Aversion: onion, garlic, drugs, alcohol, strong coffee.
Food: < onion !, garlic !.
Female: menses strong; violent tearing pain in abdomen, < menses, < ovulation.AnalysisThe main theme is love: spiritual, cosmic, romantic and unconditional. This is reminiscent of the Silicon series but of course also of families with the same theme. In this case especially the Cactaceae where there is the love with the duality of being very open and very closed and restricted.
Cactaceae: cramping, grasping, crushing, claustrophobia.
Stage 17: limitless.
Anhalonium: out of body; seeing auras; unconditional cosmic love.
DD Hydrogenium: cosmic; out of body; no theme of love and restriction.
DD Nitrogenium: claustrophobia; does not have this cosmic idealism.Follow upShe had tried Opium 200, Hydrogenium 200, Arsenicum, Carbo vegetabilis, Cocculus, Aconitum. Cuprum, Colocynthis, Phosphorus, Acidum phosphoricum, Iris versicolour, Natrium muriaticum. They helped her but the main themes kept coming back. In this list one can recognise the remedies for cramp, weakness, anxiety and being spacey.
After Anhalonium MK she did very well. The hyperthyreosis, stomach and bowel problems all went away. She felt very good and could handle relationships well.
A year later Muriaticum acidum helped her further in her development.