Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Secret Lanthanides
Type:
Remedy
Chapter:
11.1
11.1 Terbium metallicum
The most typical aspect of Terbium is a kind of gentlemanly quality. In all circumstances they (try to) stay friendly and in control of themselves. The maintenance of control over themselves is an essential aspect of their life. It can express itself as a very charming quality, even with humor. It looks as if they want to show that they have everything under control, even in the most turbulent and terrifying circumstances. But their goal is not a show for the outside world as such. It’s meant for themselves, as they cannot stand being out of control. Being out of control feels like a real threat, as if they may lose themselves, as if they will be sucked into a black hole, as if a devil has taken over.
Analysis
Maintaining autonomy
Saving independence
Guarding freedom
Maintaining self-control: gentleman
Keeping control over their shadow
Maintaining spiritual self-control
Lonely savior
Gentleman therapist
Maintaining autonomy
They want to maintain their autonomy at all times. They are on guard against situations where their independence would lessen. They want to keep their freedom.
Maintaining self-control: gentleman
They want to maintain control over themselves. As long as they feel that they are in control, they feel good. They radiate power and confidence, a trust or certainty that they are able to perform. They show confidence but have somewhere deep inside of them, a fear of failure. Then they can be a real gentleman, friendly, charming and nice to everyone. The self-control can also become overdone and turn into a kind of bravado. They have to show their control all the time, not allowing themselves to reveal a weak spot. Behind it is a kind of insecurity that they won't be able to maintain their power.
The gentlemanly quality can express itself also as a kind of saving of others, as if they are a shepherd for the deprived. Or they become a therapist, saving others with a gentlemanly attitude.
Keeping self-control
They radiate a quality of being in control. They control themselves and the world but there is a feeling that it always takes effort, it takes energy. And that gives them a feeling of tension. The tension again is something that others might notice. So they have a fear that others maybe will see it and start thinking that their control is not perfect.
Keeping control over their shadow
They have the idea that they must be in control in all circumstances. The idea of losing control is terrible. It feels as if they will fall to an enormous depth if they are not in control. It’s like the black hole that’s fully present in Thulium. In Terbium the black hole is only conscious in those rare moments that they’re not in control.
They have the idea that their dark sides, their shadow, must be held in control. Their self-control can go so far that they can’t really feel the processes inside. Because they can’t experience their shadow side, they can’t learn more about themselves. And in the end the shadow finds its way around the control and will take over.
Maintaining spiritual self-control
They can go into all kinds of spiritual development and training. A typical form is Avatar, where the thoughts are controlled by the mind, a kind of utmost thought control. Yoga and meditation are useful forms too. They want to maintain control over their psyche, over the motives in their inner world.
Autonomy
Terbium has to keep their autonomy, with the feeling that it's possible to do that. Or they want to guard the autonomy of others. The most obvious part is the high self-control. They can be saviors for the autonomy of others.
Shadow
Terbium fears that they will be swallowed up by the shadow if they don’t control themselves. Mostly they feel in control, so there is no real problem.
Power
Terbium has to maintain his power. He has to go on and cannot relax out of fear it will slip through his fingers.
Mind
Grief, melancholy.
Cheerful, quick to laugh.
Religious, intuitive.
Bravery, pompous, hiding fear.
Fear: showing fear, falling short, not being in control, loss of self-control, shadow.
General
Left side.
Sensation: tense; empty, full; undulating, waves, vibration, pulsating.
Heavy: chest, neck, shoulders, head.
Physical
Chest pressure.
Conjunctivitis, keratitis. Inner upper side of eyelids, xanthelasmata.
Lungs: granulomas, pneumoconiosis, bronchitis, pneumonia, tuberculosis.
Nausea, heartburn, vomiting << pregnancy.
Trapezius pain, left, one inch below the border, extending to elbow, along the backside of the arm, the 4th and 5th fingers, with tingling and tension.
Chest pressure, heavy, tight, tension.
Liver problems: necrosis, fatty degeneration; fat, cholesterol metabolism. Spleen problems. Colitis, diarrhea. Kidney problems.
Male: testis, epididymis, seminal vesicles, infertility.
Female: ovaries, uterus, infertility, miscarriage.
Arthritis.
Symbolism
Myth: Heracles Labor 8: Heracles kills the Mares of Diomedes.