15.5 Thulium carbonicum caseWidth 4, Depth 5,
Cure 7, Duration 5
A man of 45 years of age has depression. He could weep all day. He has a crampy pain in the pit of his stomach, which starts very mildly and then extends over the whole chest until it becomes a very painful pressure or cramp in his heart, giving the sensation of an infarction. It’s better from eating and weeping. He has the feeling that there is a big black hole that's pulling him down and in, sucking him in. It feels like falling, with nothing to hold on to, overwhelming, bottomless, endless, completely lost, like being a little spot in space, very frightening. Sometimes this feeling is lighter and feels like a shadow before the sun. Sometimes it feels good, as if he is the space. Otherwise it feels as if he has forgotten something, a deep grief, "as if a piece of me has not grown with me".
As a baby and little child he cried a lot and had nightmares. It felt suffocating. It had to do with his father, who was depressed and suicidal. It produced a black atmosphere that pushed him completely down. His father wasn't concerned about the children, and had no contact with them. His father said that he would end up in the gutter. Mother was very strict and domineering. He always had the tendency to fight her. Mother lived for the children. As a boy he was the smallest, had to act brave. During puberty he was a hippy, going his own way. Then he was fighting with his father. He never had a real friend, which was OK. He’s a homeopath.
He's interested in spiritual development. He studied philosophy and Krishnamurti for a while. He feels great when he does consultations. He hates superficial contact, for instance with his wife's family. He’s reserved and doesn't tell others when he feels sad. He’s very stubborn, rejects good advice, saying it has to be his own experience. So he never takes regular medicines. When he opens up too much, he loses himself. Receiving is more difficult than giving. He can only ask for something for others.
There are many quarrels in his family, with his wife and his two boys.
Quarrelsome, but quick repentance with weeping.
Very sensitive, almost clairvoyant.
Fears: poverty, not enough money for his family, survival.
Color preference: 19C (turquoise), <- 16D (dark blue).
AnalysisThe falling into a dark black hole is typical of
Thulium. In it he has lost (
Stage 15) all contact with the inner world (
Lanthanides).
This feeling is connected with the dark, depressive side of his father. So that leads to Carbonicum. So we come to
Thulium carbonicum.
ConfirmationsLanthanides: stubborn, <- superficial, <- medicines, <- advice, homeopath, spiritual, sensitive, clairvoyant, loner.
Carbonicum: fear poverty.
Follow upAfter
Thulium carbonicum MK things went very well. His anger diminished, he felt quieter and the atmosphere at home was more harmonious. His fear of the dark hole was gone after a dream: he fell backwards into a hole, he became anxious, but then he gave space to his anxiety and suddenly it was all gone.
There was an incident of a quarrel with his wife: she was tearing at the steering wheel while he was driving. He beat her in order to make her let go of the steering wheel. After this, he realized she was provoking him in his darkest side as she was always doing. He told this realization to her and from that moment on the anger and aggression towards her left completely.
One year later these problems haven’t come back.