Author: Jan Scholten
In their mind they can have an image of perfection, in principle everything is possible and beautiful. But then they are confronted with reality which is not always so nice and perfect. They can get pregnant too early and a child can destroy their whole career, their whole life. So an abortion is the solution. Or they have a handicapped child and the image of the perfect family is gone. Or they develop a disease themselves or suffer a financial ruin. In those situations they can lose trust in life, in God. They cannot see the beauty or divine in a handicapped child. It is very difficult for them to see beauty or grace in such situations. They can start to think it is their own fault and they feel guilty about their abortion. It is the conflict between the human and the divine.
They can also feel limited in their desire to travel, go around and discover the world. A family can be such a limitation, where one has to be there for the family, work and make money, take care of the children and give them attention. Then they can feel limited by their responsibilities. It can lead to neglect of their family, it is too much for them.
Or they have to suppress their own being, their projects in life or their homosexuality.
The theme of being threatened by father and not protected by their mother is especially strong in Cyclamen, being in Stage 17.
Threatened by father, not protected by mother.
Not coming to full blossom, blaming others for it.
Delusion: world is turned upside down, inside out.
Feeling limited, stopped, narrowed: by society, relatives, their body.
Lack of self-worth.
Guilt feeling from making the wrong choices, that of others.
Feeling: paralysed; solitary confinement, imprisoned, unable to move, powerless.
End of youth, start of adulthood.
Fine, delicate, fragile, graceful.
Innocent, childish, careless, dalliance.
Desire company or aversion company, a desire to be alone, not seen, standing alone in the background.
Not really here, absent, aloof, out of contact.
Inactive, passive, not grownup for this world.
Mild; sensitive, < noise.
Feeling disgraced: “Who am I that this happens to me".
Absent-minded, forgetting things, making mistakes.
Fear robbers; avarice.
Ailments from being neglected, not seen, disrespected.
Ailments from their sexuality, homosexuality.
Delusion: having done wrong to their children; neglected their duty.
Delusion: alone, forsaken, being put aside, alienation, lack of contact, alone.
Delusion: limited; imprisoned, paralysed; crime, being a criminal, persecuted.
Delusions: robbers, journey.
Sensation: constricting, wandering, burning, crawling, pricking, as a band, wandering, drawing, pressing, tight.
Weather: < cold, < storm, < wind, > in open air.
Physical: < lying, > motion, > walking, > massage, > rubbing, noise.
Nervous: lame, paralysis, cramp, epilepsy, convulsion, spasm, twitching.
Female: dysmenorrhoea, amenorrhoea.
Limbs: arthritis hands, finger, rheumatic; pain upper arm < writing; pain tibia < walking.
Skin: dermatitis, itching, vesicles, cracks, red pimples; eczema; fingers, hands, feet, palms; vesicles, itching, burning.
DD: Onagraceae, Oenothera.