Author: Jan Scholten
The tension is between feeling that they still have to earn their position in their culture and higher social classes and on the other hand feeling that they should have a right to it. They are very ambitious, want to achieve high things, have high goals in music, literature, science or politics. They want to be seen as special. They try hard in a spastic, crampy way to overcome the idea that maybe they might not belong to the top as they feel they should. Because they strive so hard and try to prevent failure at any cost, they feel devastated when something goes wrong. They blame themselves when a project in society fails, when a relationship breaks off or a relative dies. They feel it is a personal failure, an inadequacy. They should have been able to prevent it and have much regret and self-reproach.
Ailments from being persecuted for their opinion and profession.
Perfectionism, achieving in science and art; pianist, writer; extravagant.
Competitive, fighting, contradictory, < contradiction, contrary.
Ailments from: failure; anger, indignation, humiliation, vexation, admonition, dishonoured, looked at, consolation, literary disappointments, silent grief, death of parents, children or relatives, bad news.
Working hard, cramped, disciplined, stressed, as if they constantly walk on their toes.
Refined, intelligent, idealistic, spiritually oriented.
Their autonomy is a high demand. They need to feel free, being able to go lead their own life.
Shock from trust broken; betrayed, being let down; treated unjustly, failure, death of friends and relatives.
Sensitive, hypersensitive, over stimulated, senses acute, < physical and emotional stimuli, < light, < noise, < smell.
Irritability, shrieking, howling; anger.
Difficulty to express emotions, making no eye contact, either being closed, angry, abusive or reacting hysterically.
Mirth, joy, exhilaration, alternate with moroseness, quarrelling, sadness, exhaustion.
Sexual desire high, amorous.
Delusion: being ruined
Fear: failure, falling, heights; dark; alone; robbers.
Anger, irritability, suppressed, held in.
Sensation: cramp; shock, shattered; torn to pieces.
Nervous: cramps; convulsions, shocks, spasm, tetanus; catalepsy; hydrocephalus; neuralgia; paralysis; spasms, convulsive tendency; chorea.
Face: neuralgia; lockjaw.
Heart: neurosis; blood stagnated.
Stomach: ulcers, < abuse of coffee, cigarettes, alcohol.