Author: Jan Scholten
665.24.17 Strychnos cocculoides
Culture: Edward Munch’s painting "The cry"; theatre piece "Atropa”, women grieving about the Trojan war atrocities, rape and dead children.
The main theme is like that in a war, where armies are running over villages, looting, raping and slaughtering all peoples, demolishing everything on their way. Even the soldiers are victims as they were forced to enter the army. Or people imprisoned and tortured for nothing. Or women being raped. It gives the feeling that it is like a natural disaster, it comes over you and you cannot help it. One cannot do anything about it, is helpless.
The stage is probably 17, seeing the despair and helplessness. There is nothing that can be done. There is the destruction of Stage 17.
Theme: killing, cutting knives and swords, bullets, hand grenades, battlefield, people on horses, stabbing each other, dead people, children, blood, cruelty, barbarism, war, horses, very brutal, unprotected on horses, Gengis Khan, millions die, wander whore in the armies, violence, tortured, horrible, chased, awful and painful, horror, rape, soulless, helpless, torture-chamber”, chains, ripped clothes, dirt, children died from torture, cannon fodder, troopers.
Theme: rape, pregnant from rape or as a whore, abortion.
People with families gone through deep disaster with really horrible history; not telling anything about what really happened.
Suspicious, wanting to know what happens in our back, behind us, what we cannot see, to look around, mulishly, unmanageable.
Protecting, care of the weak, a very sick child, very careful, warm.
Secret, mysterious, camouflage, hiding.
Hiding ones soul.
Sensation of bulky, mulish, the burros are stubborn, not smooth, uneven.
Easily distracted, relaxed, small talk, superficial talk.
Hard outside, inside soft, fragile, sensitive, tender; fear of opening up.
Indifferent, fatalistic, to the outer world, easy, weary.
Laziness, convenient, to be eased, dragged away.
Boring and still noisy, yawning.
Desolate, not understanding, desperate.
Yawning instead of crying, yawning to connect with the universe.
Everyone for himself.
Feeling empty, fainting, going away, narcosis, bleeding out.
Looks: forgotten, annihilated, absent, soulless, exhausted, goggling, without emotions.
Senses lost, hearing.
Finding comfort, consolation in religion, believe in God, trust is indestructable, faith, hope, for the light.
Fear: mosquito bites.
Images: banana-like plants, like a ball, a bullet.
Head: pricking in forehead, in his temples, in occiput, in C7.
Mouth: taste bitter, bitter dust.
Female: pain uterus, ovaries, extend into back, < menses, > holding abdomen with both hands, > pressure.