Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Qjure
Type:
Picture
Chapter:
3-642.11.06
Isopyrum thalictroides
Essence
I feel alone, without a father to support and guide me. My father is absent, doing his own thing, not taking his responsibility as a father seriously. He is too childish. I want to have a safe and harmonious family. So I feel anger of being alone, but try to please and bring harmony so that the family is not further disturbed. I feel dependent on the family. There is no father, no border and no commitment.
Mind
Desire for a harmonic and ideal family or group.
Disappointment, anger, mortification from their father or partner being absent, late, irresponsible.
Suffering, sad, suicidal from not being taken serious, getting no borders or too narrow borders from parents, being restricted in liberty.
Dependent, on family.
Worse form disharmony, being left alone.
Harmonizing, pleasing, does not want to to become angry from fear of losing the group or family.
Apologizing.
Anger and disappointment, cut off the group.
Waiting for the ideal relationship
Guilty feelings.
Climbing up a mountain, hiking alone.
Resignation or protest?
Unexpected occurences.
Childlike, playing, with time, living without structure.
Adolescent, not adult yet, avoiding responsibility, fleeing from daily life, but feeling great with it.
Irresponsible, disregarding appointment, ignoring schedules.
Self-confidence low, in own dignity, an understatement.
Fear: disease, getting old; Parkinson.
Dreams: sitting on the beach as a child, holding a baby in her arms, waiting for her absent father, who went for a walk, not taking care for the family.
General
Desire: cold water; thirsty.
Body
Action: cyanogenetic.
Nervous: Parkinson.
Head: headache, pressing frontal.
Mouth: dry; itching on the tip of tongue.
Ears: buzzing in both ears.
Heart: palpitations.
Back: lumbago, tearing pain in both hips and feet.
Limbs: cold feet.