Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Qjure
Type:
Picture
Chapter:
3-654.12.13
Gaura lindheimeri
English: Lindheimer's beeblossom; White gaura; Pink gaura; Lindheimer's clockweed; Indian feather.
Dutch: Prachtkaars.
Culture: film of ‘Bienvenue chez les chtis’.
Source: Sense provings; Patricia Leroux.
Introduction
There exist a contrast between a desire for deep connection and on the other hand superficial bonds. They want to belong to the family and the society. They want to take part in the culture and arts and to be seen as special and with
serious talents. In contrast they are often neglected or just tolerated as newcomers who do not have a special status. It can be like women working in a company among many men and not being acknowledged both emotionally and financially. Another situation is of someone who is intelligent and artistic but not appreciated for their talents in their normal family.
Contacts
They like to have contacts but often have a problem to show themselves. This can lead to many superficial contacts like on Facebook and Twitter although they prefer to have deeper contact about the culture, art and science. They have a desire for connection, real, very deep, a commitment to each other.
In their family they encounter the same dichotomy between superficial and deep bonds. They feel grateful for connection, family connection, deep connection in the roots. The connection with their mother can be impossible, distanced, not nice and not easily talked about. They can be always looking for instant connection as a compensation for their lack of deep family ties.
Art
Beauty has to surpass the material world.
Searching, followed the roots, very far away, to the end of the valley, trying to question life, earth.
Irish mentality, sensitive, less technical, live for the day; soft emotional people.
Desire to put cream on my body, to make it feel soft, smooth, light, airy; loving.
Musicians were behind the same flower.
Mind
Feeling ungrounded, loose, airy, very light, like a wind, waves, wind blowing, willow, wave, will; sensation of air, light, evaporation.
Feeling 4 year old, in their parents’ garden, the house has no centre, no soul, the attention went on nothing, there was
no heart in our family, as if not connected, detached; there was caring, mother was depressed; this image was an insight, in my life, an opening, a switch; can make the house more lively.
Aversion technical connection, public, obligatory, like Facebook, strange.
Desire to be hugged and touched.
Many directions, lack of concentration.
Violent anger, < waiting.
Feeling tired, looking for energy, desire to lie down, < all people around.
Feeling quiet, beautiful, peaceful, sense of the silence, very quiet, slowing down; light, too light.
Speech disorganised or not complete; stuttering, vibrates, hesitating on words.
Time: symptoms rapid and changing.
Abrupt mood changes.
Feeling of not having finished.
Theme: chapel, sacred place, spiritual, ghosts dancing in front of the chapel; concert hall.
Theme: unknown beauty, chapel, anonymous, mystery, guided meditation, transformation.
Desire: space; pure, clean, water of Fontaine du Vaucluse; dressed in white.
Dream: a party of people, transformed to a rather superficial, very nice.
Dreams: plant, music, art.
General
Sensation: trembling lightness.
Body
Drowsy.
Nervous: trembling, < wind; nervous diseases.
Eyes: pain; pressure behind eyes, watery, runny eyes, ball in ovaries.
Throat: tickling and tonsils and throat.
Mouth: bad taste.
Lungs: cough, < tickling.
Stomach: heavy; nausea; pressure.
Abdomen: pain, left and right lower, feeling diarrhoea.
Rectum: diarrhoea.
Female: sensation like balls behind ovaries; pain in ovaries while menses, problem with menses; swollen ovaries.
Skin: dry.
