HelenaGoing slow means saving energy to go on for a long time. There is a pressure on the chest. But I endure it and go on. It’s not nice though. I breathe deeper because I want to be free from that pressure on my chest. My nose gets blocked, worse on the right side. The pressure is on the top of the sternum but also more down to rib 6, on both sides.  My breasts are sensitive but it’s not about the breasts, it’s about the ribcage.  Huge…. There is a huge responsibility.  It feels like I am like a tall Calcium carbonicum because I’m tall and people look up to me physically. That gives me a sense of responsibility because with that people expect things from me.  Blond, a bit blunt face, a little bit flabby body and flabby personality, he is younger than he looks like. But also, with great strength in the body. His strength is like an iron locomotive that thunders or rumbles through storms because once in motion its weight and power just will continue. But he would like to feel it less as a responsibility.  He would like to do things just because it’s fun. Although absolutely strong, there is not a lot of fun that he experiences. It’s just doing what you are responsible for.  He likes order and he sticks to it. It makes things possible to do.  A tall woman, the eldest, finding things out on her own. No one as an example, but steadily doing things and learning from it.  Taking care of the parents and grandparents. Responsible for the family traditions. A bit taken for granted for how she did things, but later people realize that she is very good in making things beautiful, like the ornaments and burned drawing of the family drum of the tribe. Or the way she dresses up the brides and the way she decorates the invitations. But although the first in line after the father and the tallest woman and most experienced woman of the tribe, she will not be the leader because she is a woman.  And tradition says the leader has to be a man.  And she is responsible for the tradition. And she also has this shyness, but it’s a cultural role. She’s also the first woman that will always be there and will continue to live forth because her advice lives on in the next generation of women.