Remedy code: 3-655.33.15
A 56-year-old woman, small in stature, hair with long curls, exudes an open and cheerful demeanor. The reason for her visit is inflammation of the tendon in her right wrist, just below the thumb, causing sharp, nauseating pain. Touching worsens it, exerting force makes it worse, and lifting with the thumb is very painful. It has been going on for two months, and now she has a 'job' where she needs to carve into stone. She mentions it casually. Ten years ago, she had carpal tunnel syndrome in that area, followed by surgery, and then it occurred on the left.
In the past, she had Lyme disease with symptoms such as neck pain, stiffness, inability to move, paralysis, and severe joint pain. A few intense attacks of Meniere's led to tinnitus. Joints and tendons often cause trouble. She pursued training as an Ayurvedic therapist, sparked by her experiences with Lyme therapy, finding it more sympathetic. "I am a spiritual person, having studied Eastern philosophy. I am sensitive, attuned to the atmosphere, sensing if something is amiss”.
I carry 'baggage'; my father was violent, rarely at home, and we received punishment or beatings. My mother had more of a victim role; she couldn't handle the problems. My childhood was one of 'oppression'; I was never allowed to be myself, not allowed to dance, to laugh, or be extroverted. I always heard 'no.' I came in the country as a political refugee. I attended the art academy, knowing from a young age that it was what I wanted to do, and then pursued a naturopaths course.
I am aware that I am always present, I am restraining myself, afraid I might overwhelm people. I constantly have to hold the reins. I've had many complaints, inflamed shoulders, and bursitis. I tolerate pain; I am content. When I wake up, I walk like a duck for a while; after an evening walk, all joints are painful. Sleep: I wake up 4-5 times, at morning feeling not refreshed; dreams are threatening, and chaotic.
What I struggle with is that people come in too much, causing turmoil in my head as if I've had too much coffee. Tension rises; it has been more than ten years, noticeable in my head, feeling as if it's in a clamp, and the tinnitus synchronizes with the heartbeat. It creates pressure on the head, sometimes leading to real headaches. I often have to cancel work because of it. It's happening more frequently, sometimes throughout the week. Because I was heavily corrected as a child, I think I developed a sixth sense. I absorb others' energy; I am very explosive and can get quite angry but hold back because it feels like I shouldn't. My father was aggressive, so I wasn't allowed to be. My husband gives me a lot of space; I am happily married. All my life, I've created ripples in the water; I am turbulent and passionate. I feel very vulnerable; tears flow, wondering 'Is there still goodness in the world?' I get sucked into it. I realize it's the energy of others. Always having to be on guard, walking on eggshells; I have a longing for myself, for peace.
A theme that arises, is wanting to become independent, not caring about others' opinions. A tremendous fear, afraid of authority, wanting to do everything right; it holds immense value for me.
I am a thinker, I seek connections. I was intrigued: my mother was always so fearful, and I compensated to avoid being afraid. I climbed trees; my mother had a fear of dirt, so I made a mess. I am still insecure, wanting to do everything 10 times better than others, when I organize festivals, in the kitchen, as a teacher. Lyme occurred during a time when I was struggling; I always do things I shouldn't, falling into that work. The rejection from my mother still lingers; I want success in the eyes of the public.
AnalysisThe high sensitivity to people and the suppression of emotions immediately point to Malvaceae, and more is recognizable from this family and class. Art, presenting oneself, sensitivity to people, and to energy:
Silver series, Malvaceae. Her gentle appearance, reading her own thoughts, and also her philosophical attitude fit
Silver series. Neck and shoulder girdle, including arms and wrists, have been a recurring issue. This aligns with both Birds and
Malvales. Lyme causes to her neck problems, so it was already a sensitive area.
Success towards the public: Silverserie,
Silver series. Doing things she shouldn't, being led by circumstances or individuals:
Phase 3. Admittedly, her attitude toward her mother also fits
Phase 3. Sensing, sensitivity to others, and a burdensome atmosphere are often seen in
Phase 3.
Going overboard, and being defiant, fits stage 15. Tension aligns with Hibiscus.
Prescription: Hibiscus sabdarifa MK
Follow-up at 6 weeks: There was no response regarding my complaints as in the first prescription. But remarkably, something significant happened in another aspect, amazing, words fall short. Suddenly, I dare much more. I am not as afraid, no longer dreading it. I recognize it from how I used to be, but that was gone, buried. I've also taken on a different task, and the pain in my hand is completely gone. I see the core more now; it surfaces; I am myself again. While driving, I started observing myself, examining my mental state: it is always in combat. I want to fight injustice; it is a state of alertness as if an enemy is lurking. Then, the memory of my mother resurfaces, her words 'you can't.' Often, I avoid it, looking at myself; it was confronting. It's a deep longing in me, a feeling of being chained. Before, I didn't do it out of fear, more of a conviction, a fear always present, a 12-volt sauce of fear. My mother, she 'is' fear; she said 'I can't, so you can't, it's impossible.' She was excessively pedantic; she had a fear of dirt, and I always reacted to her.
There is much less headache, only sometimes something is felt. I no longer paid attention to the my blood pressure, the tension; I felt it was no longer necessary. Creativity is returning; I have life in my hands again. Previously, I was led by fate; now I am quite proud of myself.
Dreams are still occasionally intense. I've been sleeping better in recent weeks; my husband dreams, and it seems as if I've met him in the dream. Tinnitus seems to be more prominent, present since Lyme, and occasional 'clicks' in the ears, something my grandmother also had. I am less bothered by others' energy. My father could be quite abusive; my mother would become submissive and manipulative in response. I witnessed that and reacted to it; I confronted my father, knowing 'I might get beaten,' but it was worth it; because so he lost his power. I found it so bad, my mothers influence. It has been my mission to give my daughter a lot of space; I was more of a coach than a parent to her. Fortunately, I have a very easygoing husband, wise; he keeps me grounded; otherwise, I would have flown away in my spirituality a long time ago. About my parents, I still carry a heavy heart; they are not prepared for old age. It's peculiar; my father has done a lot bad things to us, yet I look at him with compassion; it used to be hatred. I had more trouble with the rules of the church, which were quite influential in my country.
Discussion about the characteristics. Here we see the influence of the mother, admitting, being dependent: fitting with
Phase 3. The intrusiveness and aggression of her father do not appear in the sub-phase; it did not determine her life. She reacted to her father: the defiance of stage 15, going against it, persistent; there was also hatred, aspects we associate with
Nitrogenium, stage 15. This transformed into compassion, typical of Malvaceae, as a capacity. Escaping into spirituality can also be a
Phase 3 aspect, avoiding reality, and letting it slide. Her reaction, the action, is again a response to the indulgence of her mother and the desire to prove herself.
Buteo buteo, the first prescription, made her more emotional, and more sensitive to energy. The hand and wrist improved slightly; she gained a bit more energy. 'People come in too much'; tension increased; she experienced more head discomfort; she could better describe her emotions. The image of the Hibiscus indication became clearer according to the prescription of Buteo.