Remedy code:3-633.16.13
A girl, 18 years old, she is alert, in her posture, she is cautious, she has a fine but powerful build, she
is small in stature, her mother accompanies her, but she speaks for herself. An almost enigmatic
directness in reflecting on what goes on in her, without making concessions to expectations,
fashion, or dependence. Her health list from the previous year: always tired, sleep is poor, stressed,
crying fits, she is perfectionist, afraid of changes, and experiencing many emotions. The reason for
coming is fear of failure and lack of self-confidence. This plays out at school; last year, she failed
the exam due to stress and anxiety. It makes her sick; before the test, she has to go to the bathroom
three times, stays nauseous, and can't eat anything then. A few days before, she already slept
poorly: full of tension, she couldn't think anymore, and she looked bad then. She has always had
this, even with her work, she wants to do everything perfectly. She wants to do everything well; if
corrected, she puts pressure on herself. Otherwise, not much is wrong.
In elementary school, she was bullied a lot; she still has distrust of people. The teasing started of
nowhere; she was laughed at, nothing was wrong, and it lasted for three years. She didn't want to go
to school anymore; she found it so bad. Mother was at school every day to complain; she was upset
and came home to tell everything. When there is talking or laughter: very quickly, I think it's about
me. After the 8th grade, she didn't grow anymore. Later, she says that she has always been 'the little
runt.' She was called an arrogant girl. In high school, it was much better.
I have been tired for years. Still, in school: I always wonder if I belong, and that gives me tension, I
think they think something about me. I also ask people; I ask, 'Do they have something about me?'
My feeling is you never really belong, going out, having a drink, I have no need for that. Mother
recognizes a lot of herself; both are ambitious and perfectionist. Menstruation is regular since 12.
Did a lot of soccer, and taekwondo, but three years ago, she had a knee injury; after surgery, she
couldn't do sports anymore. I like these sports; my father does it too. She does it enthusiastically.
Mother: she is too sweet; friends take advantage of that. If they borrow something from her, if they
cancel an appointment: 'she swallows everything.' I don't know what I want to do after school.
As a child, she was always cheerful and spontaneous, not shy, not insecure, and was often among
people. Change: I don't like that, for example, going to a new school or a different bike. Sleep: with
periods of not being able to fall asleep.
Dreams: very strange, sometimes they are not nice, often
crying in the dream; something with sickness or death. I then hear the message in that dream and
find it very bad. Work is cozy, and fun to do. Likes to eat fries, everything.
Theme: do they find me nice enough, is everything going well, is there no argument? She can't
handle that well; if someone is angry, especially at her brother.
When she is tired, she gets pressure behind her eyes; then she has poor concentration that is always
there. After
Causticum, she passes the exams, but emotionally nothing changes. The insecurity is
still very deep. The fear of failure, that I want to be the best, that is still very much there. I look up
to people; if someone else passes their driving test right away, then I will do my best. Always try to
be the best at school; if someone else has higher grades, I don't like that.
Because I am so insecure, I push people away, and I have an immediate judgment of others. My
mother says I build a wall around myself. I find myself ugly; I find it strange when boys give me
attention. In elementary school, I was bullied and, called an arrogant girl, I don't understand that it's
different now; I have to get used to it. Now, if I get attention and then not anymore, that is very
annoying; then it's as if I have to prove myself. I talk a lot about it with my mother.
I am a klutz, like often bumping into things and forgetting things; then I am somewhere else with
my head. If I don't get attention for a moment now, I am immediately busy with it 24 hours a day,
all kinds of scenarios: what can be, will be, about boys, that has been the last two months, but also
with friends; if I don't hear anything for a while: they forgot me. Very suspicious, still, that has to
do with elementary school. I think it's because I don't harm a fly myself. She is now alone,
attractive, sensual, and with a naive openness, as with a parent or a trusted person she has known
for a long time. Not involved in her sexual radiance, but very strong in her feelings and thoughts. It
is clear that she talks a lot about herself with her mother; they have lasting attention for each other.
Also, the fixation on 'how do I come across, the group' is daily stuff.
AnalysisSiliciumseries,
Series 3: Exams have succeeded, but her self-image is unchanged. What is her living world: the group, attention from peers, contact with her mother, belonging to the group? She doesn't know
what she wants to do after the exams, 'I'll just work, I think', no need or interests:
Series 4 and 5 fall
off. Transfer of ideas, performance, and independence, doesn't seem to be a conscious process,
despite her 'mature' look and reaction to herself.
Liliidae: Her physical development and growth stopped after the 8th grade; she looks
young, 'girlish.'
Phase 1: Not fitting into the group, being an outsider, being rejected; she is spontaneous, seeks
unity, openness, and naivety fits phase 1.
Phase 6: She feels rejected, and finds herself ugly.
Butomaceae:
Butomus umbellatus symbolically fits with the 'umbilical cord to mother.' In dutch it
is called ‘Swan flower’, she feels the ugly duckling, but she is a wonderful and beautiful girl,
without knowing it.
Prescription:
Butomus umbellatus C200.
Follow-upAfter this, she feels good; she starts working in a warehouse because it's fun and cozy, she has a
good relationship with her colleagues, and gets attention from boys, which surprises and amazes
her (all she mentions is Siliciumseries related). Three years later, still doing very well.