Persian Silk Tree.
Sense proving, 25-7-25, Nettetal, Helena van Dijk.
The flower is very soft, tickling, I want to caress it.
The leaf has a green taste. I want to touch you, you seem vulnerable, but do you show yourself in all honesty? I tend to cheat and look for information on the internet about it. I don’t want to do wrong in this proving. It suddenly feels a bit heavy to be responsible about the information that comes out of this proving because I am the only one that has taken this one home to do a proving with.
And in the meanwhile, you just go for your own plan that you share with no one.
You keep things up your sleeve. Not sneaky, you just don’t want to share everything and live how it suits you. You stay on a distance because you don’t want to be checked upon. Not out of insecurity but you just don’t want to, it doesn’t suit you because it might thwart your plans. So, you stay on the surface. You don’t say things.
If somebody passes by that you don’t like you just step aside. You don’t engage with him. That is why you are on yourself in company, also in your relationship. You are clean and elegant, and you never let yourself go a 100%.
You are well dressed, classy, slim, in your thirties, but not notable. No poor man’s clothes. Healthy.
If it doesn’t go the way you want things to go your diaphragm gets tight. Because of this tension you might get a little rupture in this big muscle. This disease makes you a little restless, you change posture but also that you keep to yourself. So, you are always a bit withdrawn. Contemplative but also friendly and polite.
Always friendly, you are really kind and friendly.
To behave like you are supposed to, etiquette, is important. It makes you unnoticed so that people won’t interrogate you further.
So you are in a relationship, that is important to you, it fits and belongs to the picture.
You achieve what you want.
For the outside world your life seems abundant because you manage your life well, but you are not an abundant human being.
Sometimes you share a piece of you with your partner because your partner is the most important person to you.
But not a lot of people see the deeper part of you.
You want a family and live in a community, and you are a part of it.
During the proving I want to get deeper into the essence of the plant by tearing and ripping the leaves apart, smell and taste them but I just don’t come any deeper!
As if you are behind an attitude of friendliness.