666.47.06 Matricaria chamomilla, CaseWoman, 40, dyslexia.
She is restless and feels blocked in her relationship with people, clients and her husband. She fears that people will misinterpret and punish her for what she does.
She can be very angry but it does not come out easily. It is provoked when she is rejected, misunderstood, when others do not acknowledge her. When she is angry she feels nothing is left of her, only her anger but no self worth. In the past she felt terrorised by her mother, lately by clients and her husband. Her anger is unlimited but she always had to limit herself out of fear her mother would commit suicide, that her father would get a heart attack, that her brother would get into a rage or that her husband will leave her. She thinks others see her as absurd. She mostly has the idea that her ideas are incorrect and that those of others are right. Later in life she still was angry but in a stoic way. She thought “Others will not make me small and weak; they can take everything from me but not myself”. Her parents tried to weaken her and make her ridiculous. She does not have a good feeling of whom she is, which is worse from criticism. She feels that it does not matter what she does as she had little acknowledgement. With her anger she has a heavy feeling in her legs, like lead, as if her blood and energy do not move or stream, as if she is blocked and cannot reach her own power. This is worse when she tries to stand up for herself or when she talks, especially about her successes.
She has a fear of being abandoned originating from her mother threatening suicide.
Her mother was often ill, depressed, lying with headaches on the couch. She often threatened with suicide or apoplexy. In the beginning she was anxious her mother would commit suicide but later became immune to it. She wanted to help her mother, talked a lot with her but it was all in vain. It made her despairing, she cannot do anything with it. She wanted her children to remain like babies. She feels suffocated by it as she wants to extend her energy, she feels obstructed by her mother. Her mother threatened to send her and her brother to a borading school.
She has the feeling she cannot be herself.
As a child she had frequent ear inflammations. She hated it when her mother forced her to wear a cap. She did not like to be sick as she gained very little from it. She had frequent throat inflammations and bronchitis with suffocation.
She once had a cytomegaly infection with swollen lymph glands in her cervical region and slept for about 4 weeks.
Desire: spicy, Thai food, chocolate.Aversion: milk, porridge.
Food: < milk, fat.
Sleep: waking 4 times a night.
AnalysisLanthanides: < being forced; cannot be herself; dyslexia.
Phase 4: misunderstood, not acknowledged.
Subphase 7: rejected; abandoned; absurd.
Asteraceae: frontal sinusitis.
Chamomilla: treated as a child; irritable.
Follow upAfter Chamomilla MK she starts feeling better. She is more stable and firm, less easily angered. Her nucleus is more solid. She can see criticism as something of the other. She is not angry with herself and states what are her limits. Her anger is directed at her mother.
A year later she has a slight relapse and Chamomilla helps her further in her development.
The relationship with her husband is stabilised and becoming more loving, they have hardly any fights anymore.