Heliotropium arborescens

665.34.08 Heliotropium arborescens, CaseWoman, 40, backache.
The backache started after her first pregnancy and has become worse over the years. It comes in attacks and used to be twice a year, but now it is 4 times a year. She can get an attack from sudden movements, especially when she bends to the left to pick something up from the ground. After that she stands bent to the right, has pains from every motion, from coughing, sneezing and laughing, from turning in bed. It is a sharp, shooting pain that makes her tired. With the attacks she has to lie in bed till it’s over, typically 2 days and the worst was when she had to stay in bed for three weeks. When she was in labour she developed a symphysiolysis with severe pains in her back and pelvis, which were better from a band around her pelvis. It came back in her second pregnancy. The backache is better from lying on her back and worse from lying on her abdomen.
Her menses has always been copious but later in life they became extreme with a lot of bleeding, enormous clots, backache and labour like pains, ultimately she had a hysterectomy.Her first labour was very painful and lasted almost a day. The child was eventually pushed out with external pressure, which caused her symphysis to sprain. She felt that the child could not get out and begged for a Caesarean section, but in vain.
She herself was born in a breech position, which makes her think that she did not want to come into this world.
She feels overloaded because she has a job as a postman for money, she has her own practice as a homeopath, she takes care of the household and has to care of the children. It is difficult to survive and earn enough money. She would prefer to work as a homeopath when she has enough money. She feels frustrated that at her age she still does not have a decent income. For money she also has a tenant in her house but the tenant is taking too much space so she wants to get rid of her. She dreams that her tenant brings in several wild cats, a beggar and so on.
She is ambitious, wants to do her work very well, but it is a struggle to keep it running. She feels like an oak, overgrown by ivy.Her father was a very authoritarian Christian. He was forced by his father to become a teacher but that was above his level of competence. He was always stressed, overstressed and aggressive. He was avaricious, never spending much on the children.
Her mother was nice, gave her the feeling of being loved, but she was distant and so in general she never had the feeling of being loved. She was the youngest of 5 children, much younger than the rest. The other children did not have much space for her, the little one. She was only tolerated. The atmosphere at home was very tense because of her father, there was no emotional sharing. The family was like 7 islands, without contact. Her brother bullied her. That hurt her very much and made her feel as if she disappeared and very lonely.
In puberty she had conflicts with her parents, especially her father, about alcohol and sex. She left the home at 18, only after a lot of promises to her father to behave according to the norms. In that period she developed eating problems.
In high school she was always helping others. Friends came to her to tell her their problems. That felt good because then she was somebody, she was seen. Later she took courses in helping and caring for people. She studied sociology, worked in a home for mentally handicapped people, in an institution for youngsters in trouble. She always adapted to others, even knew what others wanted and needed before they knew themselves. She has the idea that she has to be big to be seen, to be acknowledged.She has had a relationship for 20 years and they lived together for 4 years. They have 2 children together. She stopped the relationship, because he was dictatorial and closed. She gradually became more dependent, which she did not like. After that, their relation was on and off; he later had another girl friend and that made her feel neglected and invisible. She has the feeling that no one loves her, no one thinks her valuable.
In her work similar situations happen that can provoke her backache. She senses very precisely what others want and she cares for them but others do not want to see her, to hear her opinion.Dream: she lives in her own room, goes to the home of her parents in the weekend and forgets that she has rooms of her own, so she stays with her parents for three weeks till she remembers that she has a room of her own.
Dream: living in an attic, her old tenant is there too; her old friend, who is like a beggar, brings her drugs, she lets him in and wild cats come in, she does not like it and her children see that she is a failure.
Dream: I live in the house of my parents and do not succeed on leaving.
Dream: her tenant lives again in her house.
Dream: living with her boyfriend in the attic of her parent’s house.
Dream: other people come in her house.
Dream: a scorpion is entering her house.
Dream: her house is dirty.Weather: chilly, <- grey weather, -> sun, -> light, -> sea, -> storm.
Time: < December.
Desire: sweets, Italian, spicy, alcohol.
Aversion: fish.
Food: > milk, it gives her energy.
She is sad before and during menses, with swollen breasts, swollen abdomen and stitching pain above her right groin, frequent urination and sleeplessness.
Labour was very painful and ended in symphysiolysis. She could not stand or walk for 4 weeks.
Sleep: sleepless, < 4 am.
Physical: < motion, < lying on abdomen, > lying on back.AnalysisShe does not feels loved, she feels invisible, not accepted as part of the family, just tolerated. That is the theme of the Heliotropiaceae.
But she is working very hard, has many jobs, the household and so on. This indicates Stage 8. Heliotropium is Stage 8 of the Heliotropiaceae.Follow upOne month after Heliotropium peruvianum MK she feels much better, her energy increased and she is sleeping much better. Her backaches are much less.
As a reaction she had a severe aggravation of her backache but it disappeared quite fast. She also had a pain in her left shoulder, something she had in the past.
Half a year later she is doing very well, her backaches are gone. She has changed her personality; she can stand up for herself. Her “skin” has become thicker. She feels less vulnerable, has more humour and feels more equal to others.
Ten years later she hardly has backaches anymore.