Author: Jan Scholten
Essence: Having to prove yourself as a leader.
Having to prove yourself as a leader
They have to make a start with the real leadership. It is the first time that they are taking the lead, it is as if they are being thrown into the deep end. Now they have to learn to trust in themselves. They have to lead a group, but they don’t know how the group will react. Will they recognise him as their leader ? Or will they behave like a mob of uncontrollable rabble. Whatever happens, it won’t stop them from taking on the challenge, to dare others to defy their position as leader.
Having to prove your power over a stronger force: fire
It is a n enormous task they have taken on. It isn’t like proving you can do some ordinary, every day things. It is something very special, something that is almost overwhelmingly difficult to conquer. Like having to do a firewalk for the first time. He knows he has to do it, but he doesn’t know what it will be like and whether he will succeed. Like a baptism by fire. A similar situation is that of the mountain climber, who has to conquer one of the most difficult mountains with all the dangers that will entail. They may be terribly worried about the prospect, thinking they will never do it. The sheer enormity of the task can evoke fears in everyone.
Children who have seen a fire may be haunted by nightmares of their house catching fire. This fear is especially strong if you have been forced into the situation, where it wasn’t your own choice. Here the fear can easily become overwhelming.
Having to face the challenge on your own
They like challenges and will look for situations where they can prove themselves. But they have to do it all alone, whether they like it or not. There is no superior or protector who will lend a hand, it is all up to them now. But they also feel that if they didn’t do it on their own they still wouldn’t have proved anything.
These people are very keen on new situations and challenges and where there isn’t one they will create it. They choose the most difficult studies or the most dangerous jobs. They may become stuntman for a movie, they love the challenge. And when something goes wrong they’ll simply try again: ‘I will do it!’ If you say to them ’I bet you won’t dare to do that’, they’ll go for it immediately.
Proving they are responsible or others
These people are quite prepared to take on the responsibility. They like situations where they may have to save other people’s lives, like firemen. Or they become mountaineers, anything where there is a challenge of life or death.
Unable to prove their power: failure
But besides the desire for a challenge there is also the fear of failure. They may have secret doubts whether they can succeed. This makes them tackle their task with great care. They may look impulsive, but this is only when the immediate situation demands such action.
When they fail they feel it as a personal loss. Other people’s opinions are not that important to them.
Felling forced to take on the leadership, even if they don’t know how
They often feel as if they have been forced to take on a certain task. They are up against it and there is no way out. Like being thrown in the lion’s den.
They may be quite bewildered to start with, wondering what is expected of them.
They can’t get out of the situation and when there is some form of restriction added to their task they can get very angry. They can well do without any added difficulty. These people hate being restricted by things like illness, handicaps, lack of financial means etc. The task must be completed and they don’t need any restrictions.
Hidden power: camouflage
Their uncertainty makes them a bit weary to show of their talents. They first have to prove whether they can be a good leader, whether they can really found that kingdom. Their power is hidden, new, unknown. In their situation it is a good idea to hide their strategies, to camouflage their power. Others don’t have to see how they go about their task, it would only provoke unnecessary opposition or envy. They like to hide their power beneath an air of innocent cheerfulness. It will hide their uncertainty at the same time, there is no need for others to see that either. They might think that someone who is that uncertain can’t possibly be fit to be a leader.
They tend to be quite aristocratic on the whole, feeling they are really somebody, but at the same time not wanting to be proud of it. After all, they haven’t shown they are worth it yet. They are very courteous to others and like to be treated with the same respect themselves. They are easily offended, especially by dubious or rude remarks and gossip. Their sense of superiority is also expressed in the desire to be able to have a wide view. They like wide open spaces.
Candidate for the managerial post
They usually start taking the lead at a young age. They are not afraid of hard work and know how to handle their own insecurities and possible short comings. They always find a solution to problems they meet on the way. This ability helps them to pick up any job that is going and to make a success of it too. It isn’t long before the upper ranks notice these bright young people and offer them promotion. And so they manage to climb the social ladder in a very short time.
They are usually very religious, but once again this is a feeling they find deep within themselves. It in the challenges they meet on their path that they find the essence of life. When they are able to prove themselves they feel at one with God and the whole world, like a mountain climber who reaches the top and has an ecstatic religious experience.
Sex is a challenge
They like to prove themselves sexually, but they prefer to keep this hidden from the outside world. It is their own experience and doesn’t concern anyone else.
Fears: heights, falling, murder, being murdered, death, suicide, heart disease, stroke, insanity, people, crowds, religion, devil, God, war, men, fire !!, heights !!, tunnel, rats, mice.
Dreams: heights, falling, fire, pursued across soft sand, having to enter a high building via the balcony.
Delusions: superior, alone, being a failure; mania, saving the world, fighting against corruption, fighting evil, doing everything on their own.
Irritability: angry, destructive, < offended.
Mood: haughty, cheerful, enthusiastic, optimistic,finding a solution to everything, distant, unmoved,controlled, closed, direct, impul-sive, serious, gloomy.
Mental: quick as a flash, forgetful, absent minded, confused, rigid, insane.
Professions: king, leader, director, manager, president, chairman, captain, mayor, bishop, top sportsman or woman, general, fireman, mountaineer, stuntman.
Type: male, dark hair, overweight, bald.
Weather: cold; < cold, < storm, > open air, < cloudy weather, < dry.
Time: < night, 5-6 am.
Desires: alcohol, drugs, bread, sweet !!, coffee, cold water, liquorice.
Aversion: meat, eating, fat, peppermint, menthol.
Food: < drugs, < fat, > eating, < fasting, < tobacco, < apple, orange, tangerine.
Menses: < menses, < pregnancy, < during and after giving birth.
Sleep: sleeplessness !!, heavy, deep, difficulty getting up.
Physical: < rest, < sitting, < lying, > walking, > motion, < dark, > pressure, > rubbing, < touch, < ley lines.
Weakness, nervousness and restlessness.
Pains: boring, contracting.
Sensations: swollen, blown up, heavy, full.
Energetic, tired, dull.
Glands: swollen, inflamed, indurated. Abscesses, necrosis.
Paralysis, Parkinson’s, multiple sclerosis. Shocks and jerking.
Epilepsy, tonic, clonic, tetanic.
Lack of feeling. Cerebral haemorrhage.
Headache !!. stitching, pressing, left sided, under in the back of the head; above eye, temple, + pain in eye, pressing, dull; + shimmering and seeing black threads, < light, < noise, + right hand swollen and stiff, paralysed, as if not her own, flashes of light, pink and purple, stiff arm and shoulder, < ouch, >< lying, < storm; beforehand much urination and diarrhoea, + pain in jaws, from neck.
Face swollen. Trembling < anger.
Eye complaints: inflammations, visual disturbances.
Watery carries, raw burning throat. Dry tickling cough, impossible to suppress.
Sore throat, < evening, < swallowing + nausea.
Coughing up and scraping mucus.
Fibrosis of lungs (Dreisbach).
Heart complaints: high blood pressure, infarction, failure, arteriosclerosis.
Pulse: too fast, too slow, fill, weak, irregular.
Congestion of blood. Cerebral haemorrhage. Anaemia.
Pain in chest, left, just beside the sternum, in the 4th and 3rd intercostal space, pressing like a heavy lump, > strong pressure, > sip of cold water. Sensation as if this water was trickling past a hard lump. heart feels like a heavy lump.
Stomach pains, < eating, < morning, > eructations, < warm weather.
Problems with testes and ovaries: inflammations, cancer, cryptorchism, sterility, amenorrhoea, metrorragia.
Affections of bones: necrosis, inflammation.
Stiff neck and shoulders, cold elbows, pain in coccyx < labour, back pains, < night, < lying, > stretching legs, < lifting. > having legs pulled, sciatica, underneath buttocks.
Eczema on middle of forehead.
DD: Gold series, Stage 6.
DD Tantalum: still tries to postpone his task as director, because he feels he hasn’t prepared himself well enough yet. He hasn’t worked out his plans sufficiently to see how to proceed with the organisation. Tungsten feels there is no reason to delay any longer, he has burnt his ships behind him and he has to act immediately.