18.19 Holmium metallicum provingMeditation proving, one prover, 30K, 3 January 2001, remedy known.
Delusion: it’s not worth anything, what I’ve done.
Olympic flame.
An ornamental sword with ivory hilt in a sheath covered with gems; it can only be used in ceremonies or for opening envelopes.
Ceremonial, ritual.
Uneasy feeling, as if opposing forces act in opposite directions.
Distrust, << broken contact, broken analogy.
Talent: change opinion fast, according to the situation.
Delusion: it was never good enough, the least mistake means that it was not good enough.
The least criticism means failure.
Digital, CD, alphabet, broken.
Mortification, indignation << being tackled, floored, unsuspected, the chair being pulled from under you.
Corpus callosum, hemispheric dys-synchronisation.Optic chiasm, disturbed 3 dimensional vision.
Dyslexia.
Neck jerking, jerking head.
Shoulder pain, front side of shoulder, under head of humerus.
Arms, whole body: trembling, jerking, zigzag feeling.
Heart pain, contracted.
Abdomen, lower, tearing or lacerating pain
DD: cactus.