8.17 Samarium muriaticum caseWidth 8, Depth 6,
Cure 9, Duration 6
by Anton Kramer
A woman of 50 is depressed. She has been taking care of and educating her two children alone for many years. She was working, earning the money, cooking and running the household after being left by the fathers of her children. She has been forcing herself to do things, but it has been very heavy going. In the past she could do everything but now she's doing nothing anymore. She's desperate, doesn't know what to do and is full of grief. The last year or so she's been retired and avoids unnecessary contacts. She only has contact with her children and does things for them. For the rest she wants to be left alone but that gives her a lonely and isolated feeling. It feels like a dead end, like being at her wits’ end.
The father of her first child, a daughter, was depressed and couldn't bind himself to anyone. He committed suicide some time after their divorce.
Her daughter was abused sexually by one of her partner. This was a big shock, in trust, as she hadn't noticed anything. It felt terrible.
Then she met a man from Holland. Their relationship was very problematic, especially because he wanted relationships with several women. She moved to Holland hoping he would change. But in a year's time the relationship was broken. She felt left alone, but forced herself to keep good contact with him for the sake of their son. She did a lot for him and his second wife without noticing her own feelings and boundaries. When she didn't go to their wedding, he felt irritated and hurt.
She doubts if she can have a new relationship but she misses it too. Her intuition is warning her against men. She doubts men. She asks herself why she didn't find a man who could stand up straight in life. She feels that she attracts irresponsible men because she herself takes on too many responsibilities.
She has always been sweet, nice and rational, even as a child. She always did what her parents wanted, otherwise they wouldn’t love her. She never said stop and thus crossed her own boundaries. She’s very dutiful and cannot say no. She was always caring, feeling that everything depends on her. She has never been a child. Even as a child she had to take on a lot of responsibilities. At the age of 7 she was already caring for her grandmother one day in the week, shopping, getting coals etc. She was caring for her younger brother and sister when they were babies.
Her mother had a precise idea how she had to be. She wasn't what her mother wanted. Although she was stubborn and self-willed, she adapted to her mother. But she couldn't fulfill her mother's wishes. She tried the best she could, but her mother always asked for more.
She used to get migraines, worse before menses. It was constant for hours, with vertigo and the sensation that she would fall. The migraine started with a prickling under the scalp, occiput and vertex. It felt as if a helmet was on her head, as if she was being grasped by a hand. She still can have that kind of prickling.
GeneralsDesire: sweet, chocolate, salty.
Aversion: breakfast, herring (3), milk (2).
AnalysisThe depression is due to the fact that she has taken on too many responsibilities in caring, for her children, mother and grandmother. She has been working hard and it was heavy-going.
This is the picture of
Samarium muriaticum. The
Samarium is
Stage 8, which we see in the hard work and heaviness. The Lanthanide aspect is seen in the responsibilities (
Gold series) and self-willed character. The Muriaticum is found in the caring and children.
She forced (
Stage 8) herself to care (Muriaticum) for her ex friend.
ConfirmationsLanthanides: stubborn, self-willed, <- milk.
Stage 8: forcing, forced herself, heavy, always asked for more.
Samarium: migraine.
Muriaticum: alone, left alone, no contact, unloved, < before menses, mother, -> salty, <- herring.
Follow upThe first 3 days after
Samarium muriaticum 200K were very bad. The aggravation started after 30 minutes. She felt very tired, went to bed very early but couldn't sleep the whole night. She had a headache, the first day right sided, the next day left and the third day in her whole head. After those 3 days she felt a lot better. The pressure was off.
She has no headaches anymore and the pricking has been much less. She weeps less. She has changed emotionally and has done a lot. She invites friends over. She could follow her own course with her family. After 5 months and a few repetitions of the remedy she's feeling much better. She has the desire to do things, has many more contacts and feels more able in life. She’s more active.
Zincum muriaticum had no effect.