Proving: trituration proving, Moscow, Olga Fatula.
Lonely, alone, desire to be alone.Silent, taciturn.
Shy, timid.
Having own opinion, but not sharing it.
Doubting, about oneself.
Going to a youth camp, working camp, army camp.
Fear of not being free, being oppressed.
Succumbing to the will of parents.
Hiding, not showing.
Adopted child.
Living in a rent house, flat.
Kubism, impressionism.
Women who are not free to be an artist, to go to the art academy.
Desire to study art, philosophy, life philosophy.
Dissatisfied with family life, household.
Movie ‘Big eyes’.
Ken Wilber, had to be alone to write his spiritual books.
Pleasing.
Diminishing their possibilities, abilities.
Novel of Alexey Tolstoy ‘Walk on suffering’
Migraine, behind eyes, temples, as if a hit on forehead, as if a blow through sinuses, < study, < noise, < sun, with nausea, vomiting.
Asthma, lack of air.
Heart ache from worries.
Mouth dry.
Gastritis, pain epigastrium, cramping, as if poisoned.
Feels as if having no legs.
Living in a dormitory, a hostel.
Rent a flat of a librarian.
Babies not fed.
Chest burning.