Prover Ursula• I keep sneezing.
• I feel like saying, ‘Don't touch me.’
• The image of a hedgehog comes to mind.
• I want to push it away with both hands – It is like a defence.
• I ask why defence is necessary. ‘It's the only way I can survive.’
• The image of a man appears who is very rigid and does not question the reason for his rigidity.
• The larynx becomes constricted and the constriction spreads from there to the palate and left ear and into the head.
• A dwarf with a very long nose appears, dancing around like Rumpelstiltskin.
• A black hole (like in the universe) forms on the forehead, devouring everything.
• Attention is directed outward, toward defence, not inward.
• I am sitting as if in a bubble. No one can harm me there.
• I am fighting for a high rank/value. What I say must not be questioned.
• A feeling of severity, of demandingness, rises within me.
• I am soooooooo tired.
Prover: Petra BallochCable ties
Dream world, illusory world: I am special, I am versatile, I could be a weapon, or a saw, or a musical instrument. I am seen. Role-playing games.
Like a water hose with yellow stripes, a snake, be careful!
Swords, barbs, hunting, traps set.
Military combat, guerrilla warfare.
Spears in the ground, where the paratroopers would land.
Take cover, prepare to defend itself until it is old enough.
Precocious.
A construct of the mind.
Still young, he disguises himself as old so he won't be attacked.
Danger—as a thought, not as a feeling.
Preparation.
Strategic games, simulation games, disaster scenarios, computer games.
Mind versus blocked emotions.
Young men, boys who sit in front of computers for hours playing strategic war games with battle plans. They even learn Latin to read Roman military texts. These young people are underestimated; their time will come. Is this a threat? Or is it all just fantasy?
Fascination.
Emotions blocked.
Prover Helena35
Pseudopanax crassifolius
Araliaceae
Remarkable, disappointing, just more normal than you would think.
Bit grassy, normal, not very exciting.
A bit weak personality, doesn’t show much, like a liguster hedge you are supposed to have around your garden, cut halfway. So everybody can be controlled.
Not nurtured by inspiration. Inspiration is subordinate to rules.
Inspiration is just exaggerating. You better show tangible results. You cannot buy anything with inspiration. You have to show to the surroundings your tangible results.
You have to swallow the bitter pill of a life without inspiration. You stay firm because you want to live, to survive, but you have to stick to work/something for which you don’t feel any inspiration at all.
It is a heavy energy. Dark. Monotonous. Mechanical. Grey and grizzled.
And you can’t even think of something to do about it. In the end you want to be complimented, that becomes your aim. By your surrounding, your upbringers, at school.
But it is worthless except that you learn how to earn money to buy your food.
I feel constriction at my throat, just before the larynx, like a too tight string of a cap. My breathing is not affected buy it. It is just to keep my head up and keep me going on.
You cannot give up. That is not the way it goes here. Je ought to keep going until the bitter end.
And only at the end, when you die, there will be light.
Your soul, your inspiration is muted. They cannot speak. It is if there is a thick wall, like in the Sleeping Beauty, they are asleep all the time. The world around is developing but you are not supposed to pull yourself up on it.
You just have to accept the way it is. This is what it is.
You learn to cherish what you’ve got.
Your soul is broken without you noticing it.
Song of Passenger: Dreaming
refrain:
If you can’t get what you love
You learn to love the things you’ve got
And if you can’t be what you want
You learn to be the things you’re not
If you can’t get what you need
You learn to need the things that stop you dreaming
Hey, all the things that stop you dreaming
Porver BrittaPseudopanax crassifoliusSense proving in the group on 25 July 2025
Very bitter taste, which is repulsive
An ugly mask to protect oneself
Someone who is quite isolated, who has not learned what loving care means, who grew up being beaten. This can go so far that one becomes a criminal.
The longer I am with the plant, the more I can distance myself from current difficulties; they disappear into insignificance.
Headaches, pulling, extending to the eyes and eye sockets.
Contracting feeling in the navel area.
Dull, as if without thoughts.
Prover DorlePhysical:
Lower back pain.
Chest pain extending to the jaw.
Tightness in the chest, unable to expand the chest.
Tightness in the larynx.
Constriction in the throat.
Unable to breathe, more discomfort in the larynx.
Rigid.
1 and 2 cervical vertebrae.
Nausea accompanied by shortness of breath.
It is a situation in which a person is wrongfully convicted or confined to a psychiatric ward.
A person who has been abandoned by their family.
Wrongfully convicted.
Intense despair.
Inner screaming because they are not recognized or understood.
Power and judgments by others.
Completely exhausted, breaking down, feeling unable to go on, begging for help and understanding.
Dissociation sets in, everything seems foggy.
Feeling intoxicated, as if under anesthesia or sedatives.
Feeling of total hopelessness due to the power of others.
Does not know where he stands in life, with a desire for freedom.
There is no meaning anymore, total hopelessness.
Intense impatience.
Intense anger at the injustice that has been done to him.
Wants to run, run away.
Not being understood.
Feels threatened and hunted.
Feeling trapped, accompanied by shortness of breath.
Uncontrollable crying, with the need to withdraw in order to cry in peace.
Relief through crying.
Healing:
Going his own way alone.
Breaking the chains and shackles that have been placed on him.
Free breathing.
Acquittal, he is understood and rehabilitated.
Political prisoner.
Someone who does not fit into the system and is condemned for it.
Lawyer who fights against political norms.
Intellectual.