Cadmium

5.12 Cadmium, Case 1A woman of 45 years has severe depressions and panic attacks. She has fears in crowds and churches, has often a sudden fear that she will be left alone. She's afraid of diseases and death and thinks that she will have a fatal disease with every little complaint. She's afraid that she won't really die. She doesn't trust the docters and thinks that they won't say the truth to her. Breathing therapy has helped her a bit with these complaints. Five times she has had a kind of attacks of catalepsy: she could hear and see all, but could not move and had the feeling of being a prisoner in her own body, of being dead. She also has feelings or hallucinations that someone blows smoke in her face and when she has that she feels a pressure on her face and a trembling in her upper lip. She feels desperate and can hardly do anything during the day.
She has already for 10 years complaints of hyperventilation: palpitations, her heart races, she has vertigo, feels as if sitting in a narrow barrel, cannot get air and must sit right up in bed.
She has a red and congested face, which is aggravated when she has had some glasses of wine. It feels very unpleasant, as if she can explode every minute. Sometimes she has an eruption besides the wings of her nose; it feels very tense. She can loose her voice in half an hour.
The problems started at the time of problems at her work. She was a supervisor of a group of salesman. She trained these salesman and worked very hard, twelve hours a day. She was very ambitious and also very competent. When the directors started with reorganisations, she became angry about the way they treated the fellow-workers. It made her furious and sick, even more so when the directors offered her a promotion if she would stop her resistance. She felt as if sucked out by vampires. She stayed home sick for three months and when she wanted to go back to work, they said that they hadn't counted on that anymore and she was fired. After this episode she started working part time as a secretary to be able to study law, but was unable to continue it due to the tensions and hyperventilation. She tried to start a bureau for consultancy for her self, but that failed too.
She looks for problem situations, 'when it is quiet, it is the silence before the storm'. This is also expressed in a dream: she walks in a street and a bridge behind her suddenly closes with a bang. She is very communicative, but doesn't trust people easily. As a child she was timid and very sweet. At the other side she was suspicious of nice remarks about her beautiful hair. She was wise for her age and obstinate, even impertinent. She lived in her own world and was afraid that she would something that people should judge weird. In puberty she was terrible, had the idea that everyone was crazy and compensated her timidity with verbal violence. She had a lot of quarrels and fights with her mother. After high school she studied arts. She is the eldest of four children. Her mother had had a stillborn child before her due to medical mistakes and got pregnant of her very fast after that episode in order to process the grieve.
She can be very stressed and irritable, especially when someone is doing injustice to her. For example, she felt very irritated and powerless when a civil servant tried to cut down her payments.GeneralsWeather: restless << heat and sudden changes of weather; hot head, cold body.
Time: < 4-5 pm, < morning.
Desire: sweet, chocolate, salt, meat, egg (2), cherries (3), avocado.
Aversion: spicy, sour, old cheese, milk.
Food: < alcohol.
Sleep: <- sleeping long.AnalysisAfter different Ferrums that did not do much good for her she told about her ‘powerless’ feeling, a keynote for Cadmium. The catalepsy is an expression for that feeling. And then the rest fitted too. She felt as if sucked out by vampires [enemies, Stage 12]. She is very suspicious [Stage 12-14], as if there is ‘silence before the storm', as if a bridge behind her suddenly closes with a bang. In Cadmium is also the ‘< 5 pm’.
We can see a cause in the grieve of her mother during pregnancy about the stillborn child due to medical [Silver series] mistakes [Stage 12].
With Stage 12 fits: obstinate, impertinent.
For the Silver series we find also: arts, middle management.ReactionFerrum nitricum, Ferrum muriaticum and Ferrum arsenicosum gave only temporary relief. After Cadmium metallicum MK the real change started. She feels more at ease, the desperate feeling is gone after a month. With 6 repetetions she loses her complaints almost completely in the course a year.