A 70-year-old woman, she is sturdy, has a stooped posture, stringy gray hair, wears baggy clothes in beautiful colors—usually light purple—and has sharp, stern, bright, disappointed, distrustful, and very tired eyes. Her skin is grayish, and when she talks, it is as if she is reading from a long-standing story. She always walks with a shuffle. She is emotionally drained, can freeze up, and even come to a standstill in her movements. She regularly experiences catatonia, which is a breathing blockage lasting a few minutes, her hands can cramp up, and she starts shaking. She often wants to die, to give up, she is tired. She calls it dissociating, staying in another, timeless world. When she works in the garden, she stops breathing and has to pause for a moment. She has not slept for 20 years and urinates 50 times a night. Medication makes her sick, she has many food allergies (fruit, gluten, proteins, beans, fats), cigarette smoke, and insect bites. The children were and are very complicated, there are drugs, crime, she had a relationship with an asylum seeker, he drained her, later she was dumped. Her childhood and her entire existence were a nightmare: her parents called her a calendar accident, a child of the devil, her mother tried to abort her, her brother pushed a pillow over her head when she was two years old. At the age of four, she started to dissociate: getting up early, fetching the coal, setting the table, living in another world. She has called herself suicidal since she was two years old, “she wanted to go back to where I came from.” Her father was always grumbling and committed adultery. The diagnosis now is dissociative disorder. It was recently triggered because her sister died. She was never allowed to play with her, she was verbally abused, and she was emotionally banished by the others. She never had a right to exist and is not even mentioned in the will. She is recalcitrant, does not give up, wants to transform it, and explains it from previous lives. Her father tried to push her off the balcony of their apartment when she was twelve. She helped her mother from toddlerhood, and at twenty she collapsed. She was clairvoyant, she knew in advance about bargains in the store or how relationships would turn out, she could make contact with the other world, she was telepathic with the children, but at some point, she made the choice to incarnate, and lost it, which is also a loss. She has a problem with discipline, she is a rebel, a truth seeker, about everything. She has to be careful that people don't drain her. Her parents experienced the bombing and then moved here, her children were threatened, persecuted, got into drugs, etc., “We are going to kill you.” And then there is the world, which is also disturbed for her. Those evil forces, she has always felt that she had a role in them, should have had a role in them. She feels too much. Acherantes atropos gives a slight improvement, Daucus carotis and Hura brasiliensis do nothing.
AnalysisSeries 63: Her life story and her experience of it are dramatic. Her world is metaphysical. We see aspects of the
Lanthanides (loneliness, shadow, autonomy), but also much of
Series 3, the
Silicon series, because of the problems in the family, the brothers and sisters. This brings us to the Caryopylliidae.
Phase 7: standing outside of life, suicide, wanting to flee, drugs, threats, war (parents), catatonia, the trigger now being the death of her sister.
Phase 6: no appreciation, sloppy, no appreciation, not allowed to participate, you are a bitch. Fatigue.
Within the
Nepenthaceae family, two plants are known, one of which is placed in
Qjure.
Stage 12: struggle, threat, repetition, exaggeration, distrust.
Nepenthes distillatoria: being drained, feeling threatened.
Prescription:
Nepenthes distillatoria C200
Follow-upAfter five weeks: she is livelier, more open, and she radiates less aggression and gloom. At first, it intensified terribly: she felt neglected, she wanted to escalate and explode, then calm came. She spends a lot of time in the garden, with the plants, the scents. She is still awake and alert all night. In recent days, she has finally had moments when she feels spiritually herself again, instead of exhausted and traumatized. The catatonia no longer occurs. In the months that follow, her skin becomes less gray, her eyes are calmer, and she can interact better with her family, but every time there is contact with her family, she feels rebellious, angry, and tense. Her allergies are less severe, but she continues to be bothered by cigarette smoke. The despair is gone. In the years that follow, she is much more stable, optimistic, and enterprising.