Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Qjure
Type:
Picture
Chapter:
3-633.12.05
Echinodorus macrophyllus
Mind
Feels being rolled flat, flattened on the ground; as if a roller has gone over you, as if everything has been splashed out.
Feeling of not being seen, being unimportant. Like a truck that does not see a bicyclist in the corner and runs over him.
Trying to reach something, cramp like.
Wanting to do too much, to be special.
Shocked in contact with others, but does not show it, stays friendly on the surface.
Tries to understand intellectually why others do things the way they do, why they are so cheerful.
Friendly, but they do not really give of themselves for fear of being overrun; this means they are not seen.
Fear: of being incapable.
Postponing, avoiding, for fear of failure.
Feeling as if everything is pressed out of you, suddenly, in a shock.
Infringing the establishment, creating disorder, scandal.
Parents divorced.
Ailments from violent parents, arguing.
Body
Nervous: jerking, epilepsy.
Eyes: dark, red; red eyelids; styes, nodules of eyelids; vision diminishes, horizontal hemiopia, blindness.
Ears: red, red tragus, fiery red.
Nose: sneezing.
Limbs: painful vibration from vertex to feet, in the whole body, trembling like; pain elbows.
