Author: Jan Scholten
Essence: getting ready for the task.
Getting ready for the task
They are ready to take on a task. They are preparing themselves to start a trade or a craft. They want to be perfect in what they are about to start, showing others that they are capable of putting their knowledge into practice. They are setting up the job.
Testing for faults: details
Before they really start they like to have a trial run to see if everything works. They know that the overall plan is sound, but there might be some minor snags that could cause a problem. That is why it is better to have a trial run, they like things to be perfect. Overlooking a minor detail now could ruin the whole project.
They have every reason to be calm because there is still time to correct any mistakes. But usually they tend to be nervous and hurried, afraid that everything will go wrong at the last minute.
People who default are brought to trial: police
The testing may also be done by people in the village who are especially appointed for this task, for instance the police.
They can be quite frightened of the police. We sometimes hear of children who are scared of the police without any apparent reason. As if they have done something wrong, but they don’t know what. The English word for policeman is ‘cop’ which is very similar to ‘cob’, the abbreviation of Cobaltum.
Criticism is experienced as failure
They quickly get the feeling they have failed. They have little self confidence and always feel they are not up to their task. They know they can do it, but always feel that it will go wrong at the last minute, that they just won’t make it. The feeling of ‘not quite’ is very typical of Cobaltum. They are nearly there, but not quite and they feel as if they’ll never get beyond this point.
They also feel they are being observed and they can’t escape from this fact. ‘Everybody knows’ that they can’t quite make it. That is why they don’t like to talk about themselves or to look people straight in the eye. Whenever they have a problem they want to solve it first before they talk to anyone about it. At least the risk of failure has passed by then.
They don’t like to criticise others either. They are afraid of being too harsh and making him feel that he is no good. Not only that, but there is also the rule that what you give you might get back, so it is better to be very careful.
Afraid to take the step: cancelling
Their attitude towards work can be twofold: on the one hand they look forward to it, feeling they might make it after all, and on the other hand they can have an aversion to the whole thing, knowing that ‘it won’t come to anything, as usual’. A typical situation is the last minute cancellation of a project. Everybody is surprised because it was all set to go, but they themselves felt that it would have gone wrong anyway.
Getting ready for the exam
They are afraid of failing their exams, of having a black-out or committing a blunder. This may actually become a self fulfilling prophesy. They study till deep into the night before the exam, partly because they tend to put off everything until the last moment. Another typical situation is that they get so worked up that they give up just before they are about to take the exam, or they decide not to turn up on the day, because ‘I will fail anyway’.
These people constantly feel like a student in the final, nail biting days before his exam.
Fear of committing a blunder at work
When they feel they have failed they get depressed and give up. This is the theme we know best from rubrics such as: Delusion he has committed a crime and everyone knows it’, or ‘Thinks too little of himself’ (Allen, vol. 3, page 361) and ‘Condemned, mean feeling, as though guilty of some deeds of which others knew’.
They feel let down in the eyes of the community. A negative report about them in the newspaper makes them feel totally isolated.
Fears: failure, criticism, opposition, observed, anticipation, let down, exam, tests, blunders, lessons, impotency.
Dreams: unsuccessful attempts, paralysis, blunder, failure, erotic, lively, no dreams; no way forward, last bit of nature, castration, cancer of the tongue, isolation, cancer of lung, oesophagus or larynx, patients cancels appointment, not being able to leave on time, people are in the way, nits, guilt.
Delusion: is a criminal and everyone knows it, despised, pursued, being too small, being tall.
Mood: lively, excited, gloomy about self, restless, nervous, hurried, impatient.
Irritability: suppressed, aggressive.
Mental: clear, active, confused, < motion, dull, conservative, dementia, Alzheimer.
Expressions: not quite, nearly, after all that.
Causes: failure, criticism by teachers, police or parents.
Work: -> and <-.
Weather: < cold, < damp, > outside.
Perspiration: feet, sour.
Time: < 5 am.
Desires: fish, sweet, meat, spices.
Aversion: sour !!, warm, milk.
Food: < alcohol, wine.
Sleep: wakes at 5 am., unrefreshed.
Physical: < sitting, > walking, standing, lying down; < pressure.
Discharges are foaming. Retarded growth, spina bifida.
Cancer of tongue, throat, lungs, oesophagus.
Vertigo < stools. Weakness, tiredness.
Epilepsy (Dreisbach). Vertigo. Neuropathy, degeneration of fibres.
Headache; in occiput, above eye socket, < scratching, < getting up, < stooping; heat and swelling; as if the top of head is flying off.
Hazy vision, no colours, opticus atrophy. Lachrymation in open air.
Dry mouth. Lips cracking. Thick tongue. Split palate.
Tongue smooth, red, painful, white, fissure down the middle. Salivation at night. Colds.
Thyroid enlarged (Dreisbach).
Pneumonia (giant cell interstitial), fibrosis, thickening of the lung tissue (Dreisbach).
Cough, dry or foaming mucus. Asthma, suffocative feeling.
Hypotension, pericarditis, congestive heart failure, heart pains, cor pulmonale, epilepsy, too many red blood cells (Dreisbach). Anaemia !!, pernicious!!.
Clotting function disturbed. Weak pulse. Arteriosclerosis.
Stomach complaints, heartburn, vomiting (Dreisbach). Diabetes. Diarrhoea.
Impotency, seminal emissions at night without erection.
Affections of kidneys; pain in urethra on standing. Enuresis.
Back pain, lumbar, < sitting, > walking, standing, lying down. Affection of bones. Heavy legs. Pain in shoulders. Inflammation of joints.
Legs congested. Paralysis. Hands tingling.
Eczema, red, blistering (Dreisbach). Acne on chin. Vitiligo.
DD: Iron series, Stage 9, Vitamin B12.
DD Ferrum: feels heavy, has a heavy task, needs to force his way through. Cobaltum has nearly reached his goal, there is not much work left to be done, only the final details.