Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Qjure
Type:
Picture
Chapter:
3-666.21.13
Brunia laevis
Introduction
An extreme form is like a woman in slavery, paralysed with fear. It is a situation where one is locked up, one cannot escape, one feels helpless, subjected to this situation. A situation of social obligations, structural violence with a passive attitude, accepting a situation because of fear of the consequences, combined with impulsive acts of flight. Bashful for fear, adapting and giving up ones personality, individuality, with rashly acts. There are anger and quarrels, but one pulls back for fear of the consequence. Caught in a situation, thinking to and fro impulsively, over and over, feeling locked up from all the different possibilities and staying passive.
Mind
Autism.
It is like an escape, in a full run and one gets stopped, sudden locked up in full speed. Ready to set off for something new and one gets suddenly stopped, like paralysed.
Round, complete.
Everything is still possible, hopefulness with a lot of possibilities.
Robust, but in the same time fine.
One does not know where and how to manage, but is with confidence, one gives it a try, one searches for technic.
Letting oneself drift, disillusioned, smashed dreams, stopped flow.
Wedding, wedding flowers, corsage
Stiff.
Bathing, baptising.
Chess.
Face distorted, < disappointment in life, marriage.
Mask, cosmetics mask.
Open, a great door had opened, a lot of light outside.
Energy expanding to the universe.
Flower of live.
Nice; friendly, stays in the room.
Fear doctors.
Body
Nervous: paralysed, left leg, as if one cannot go on, (sudden locked up in full speed).
Eye: pain in right eye; itching right inner canthi.
Chest: pressure, like pulled in; stoop shouldered.
Back: backache, lumbar, left side.
Limbs: tension in left leg, up from the calf, to the thigh and left side of ones buttock.
Face: tingling.