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Beryllium nitricum
Year 2022, Issue 18CaseAuthor: Carlos Melo
My problem is because my English is very bad. I translated some statements of a case of beryllium nitricum, but I am sure that it is full of mistakes. I am sending part of it now. Your opinion is very important for me.Case of Beryllium nitricumDream of the patient: “I had a nightmare with my relatives, I reacted as an autistic boy who cannot adapt himself to social conviviality, this is my bigger complaint”.
I dreamed that I was driving cars. Reading about these dreams I perceived that the fear to drive only happens with demanding and detailed people who never want to be reticulated about wrongs made in public and there is a direct relation with difficulty to manage his own life.I am trying to adapt me to the environmente where II always lived (Curative symptom).
Statements of the patient:
I have acnes in my face in the form of cysts.
The determining factor of my problem is not having a social life, I am still inside the home, broken, I do not have enthusiasm to live. Social Activities like to buy a bread I make as it were for the first time. I am as an anti-social person who tries to adapt to the community, but I miss it. It is hard for me to adapt to social life, I must recover my self-confidence to learn to deal with it. I don’t grow up; I do not take part to the things of life. When I was a child I was ashamed to wear only underpants close to others (tub). I do not know what my ability, a sensation of powerlessness. I try remaining well with me to achieve something in life, let us see whether my body aids to enter the rhythm, on the trail, if it helps me tune.
I cannot react; I could try another course in the history of my life. The prejudice of society pains me as some family members on what is happening with me, this frigidity of character, this moral weakness, my naivety, this fear of responsibilities. The things at home are analyzed superficially, I am meager, revolted, I am very intolerant with the swearwords of my brother, I am wrong with life. I must take my life in my own way, I feel uncomfortable in the midst of the people. I hate be criticized unfairly, about things that I hear of the people of my co-existence. I lost the focus. My mood is distorted. I only canalize my energies for bad things. I must stabilize. I do not have a escape valve. We cannot demand a pattern of other, each one is who he is. My affection is suppressed.
I've kept resentment of my father because he did not know how to educate me and of my brother because his malicious comments. I become sad because my mother is a victim; she does not have the minimum of understanding to help me. I remain fixed in thoughts that do not lead me to nothing. I have tried delete that obscure and anguishing past, but I could not. I am wrong by being contaminated by discord, where should prevail forgiveness.
A look is enough to see that my old (father) finds absurd my behavior and thoughts, as if I were a psychotic escaping from reality. He tells me things such as: "put the feet on the floor". My brother is an alienated with his ridiculous justifications for a rational being. As it were not enough he disrupt my space. He meddles in my life wasting my friendships, creating a hellish climate. In fact no one has ever respected my space.
I hope and I am enthused with the possibility to take back the motivation to live and able to make my personal and professional projects in a way mild and calm, both in relation to me and other. I am concerned with my improvement, but I believe that we are right in relation to my treatment. I am impeded to do the activities of the day; I am despondent, arrested within me.
Inside home I feel some comfort, but just I leave that appears discomfort.
I wake up wanting to leave, cycle, run, but I cannot do, I am physical and mental exhausted, I am lazy to go out. I like to be free. My willingness to carry things is so much that I stop the natural procedure of my life.
I miss of life, I wish my place under the sun, I will not be only an adjuvant player, I don’t know to be passive. I would like to live with people more open to dialog, but the sociability is a torture.
I don’t go out; I remained more with me, closed too. I am unobtrusive; I don’t talk about my life for others. I hate being looked at, but I was always looking at things.
I want to wear dark glasses in the classroom, as if the others could see something wrong in my eyes (bar-act).
I suspect that someone is telling this or that about me, analyzing me.
I cannot look at the face, unless the other does not know anything about me.
I had the classic crises of panic trouble, my heart beat stronger, I lacked air, much anguish. They were fast, they came without any reason (acon, kali-ar). They happen when I am criticized, judged, questioned about my life. I cannot take a joke.
I am worry about other’s opinion; I feel badly when you judge me without knowing what is happen about me, if you make wrong diagnosis about my person.
I am only a grain of sand, but someone observe, I cannot hide the interior pain.
I hide my feelings, but they are clear to everybody.
I am ashamed of me not having a social life. I have social phobia.
I would like to see the life with other eyes. I perceive what others do not see.
I am not free to look people. My image reflects very different from that I am. I don´t allow others enter my life (cycl), they invade my privacy. I never invade the intimate of nobody. Actually nobody has ever respected my space.
The lack of objective affects my self esteem, I cannot initiate.
I want to be well with my family, with the most attached, but I don’t know what to do.
I have much love to give. I cannot get a partner appropriate to my profile. I must divide my weakness, I live seeking a partner in the virtual world. She never knew that I was there. I never was loved. I am ashamed to demonstrate my feelings, I believe that nobody understands me (stram). I am afraid not get a girlfriend because I don’t have a normal social life. I satisfy myself seeing videos and photos, the real sex is better.
I try to be self-sufficient. I know defending myself very well. I am not a promise as a scholarly of football, I am a reality.
I seek a quality of stable life. In childhood I was totally open, I live well with everybody (beryl in + pole), I was very attached with my parents.
My mother suffocate (acon) me with her excesses of protection, I am sorry because she is a victim and does not have a minimum of understanding to help me. My father helps me pay the treatment.
I don´t valorize material things. The system of the chief (my father) runs away completely of my principles, of my values and ideals.
Statements of the patient which may be attributed to the ion Nitricum (NO3−) of the compound.
I am wrong because I am contaminated by discord, where the forgiveness should prevail. I've kept things that I do not need, I have resentment of my father because he didn’t know educating me, I cannot forgive him, and my brother because he made malicious comments which created a hellish climate in my life. I don’t desire this for my greatest enemy.
I feel a hate unjustifiable against many relatives and closer people. I have left the family of hand, I am very grudging, very intolerant of contradiction, and I take everything to iron and fire. The past insists to distress me.
It is hard to me forgetting the bad events of this traumatic past, which hurt my heart. To be criticized unfairly spleen me. If someone insists I could not forgive. I remain in the virtual life because of traumas of the past caused by suffering and constraints, they destroyed my self esteem.
I cannot solve my problems in the curt. I want to know your opinion about my desire to process the psychiatrist who diagnosed me mistakenly.
What I want I persevere. I have a very large heart, an integrate character. I hate be touched, I do not support that you pity me. I was a victim.
HOW DO YOU FEEL WITH YOUR FRIENDS?
Allthough I have friends (phosphoricums, nitricums), they are very important for me (sars, mag-m), someone is always calling me, they ask how am I thus, I am jealousy for my friends, nevertheless my brother takes most of them.
From his history I took the following symptoms.
Expressions
Fear: social phobia, of reproached / censured, of being ridiculed, of his condition being observed, of being excluded, of going out, of streets, of strangers, of unknown, of crowds in street, of embracing life, of future, of failure, of coition from anxiety, of disease, of disease of heart, of suffocation, of sudden (panic attacks, overpowering), of cancer, of apoplexy, of losing support of the doctor, of will not have a partner, of will no study (ped a1), of being neglected / rejected, of being alone, of driving a car, of insanity, of unconsciousness (alum, alumn), of opinion of others, of poverty, of responsibility, of falling from high places, of birds, death, of dark, of monsters, of authority, of to give criticism, of hurting others, fear with weary of life, fear with palpitation, fear of a process, fear causeless.
Dreams: being a professional football player, married with my platonic love, with friends of childhood (calc-p).
Mental and Mood: timid, timid about appearing in public (coldness of abdomen), bashful, uncertain, indecisive, -amel. and agg. support, listless, meaningless, gloomy, childish behavior, discouraged, cowardice, contemptuous, contemptuous of life, contemptuous of self, discontented, discontented with him self, doubtful, doubtful of recovery, helplessness, forsaken feeling, indifference to loved ones, want self confidence, mental insecurity, excluded from life, cannot bear to be looked at, without place, difficult defining his own place, sensitive to criticism, presence of strangers agg., sympathetic, benevolence, vulnerable, undertaking: he would rather evade a problem than face it, abrupt, anger from contraction, anger easily, anger at trifles, anger violent, anguish, anguish preventing respiration, anxiety extreme, anxiety about one’s own health, anxiety with impeded respiration, aversion to certain persons, beside oneself, disposition to contradict, contrary, euphoria. /irritability from trifles, jealousy, lamenting, laziness, despising life, litigious, aversion to live, needs for love, malicious / resentment, misanthropy, mocking, mood changeable, repulsive, morose, morose with oneself, morose weeping amel. obstinate, offended easily, perseverance, optimistic, pessimist, ability for philosophy, pities herself, quiet disposition, rage, power of reason increased, remorse, reproaching others, reserved, resignation, complains of respriration agg. from mental symptoms, internal restlessness, rudeness, sadness with anger, sadness anxious, sadness about disease, sadness gloomy, sadness after midnight on waking at 5 h, secretive, selfishness, sensitive to external impressions, sensitive to noise, sensitive to touch, sighing, disposition to slander, disagreeable thoughts, persistent, tormenting, aversion to be touched, trifles seem important, feels unfortunate, vivacious, wearisome, weary of life, weeping amel., loss of will power, prostration of mind, wretched, refusing to take the medicine, making verses, sentimental, love-sick, hypochondriasis, curious, yearning for peace, desire for harmony, powerless, always look at the things, company agg., Inside home I have certain comfort, but if I leave it discomfort appears, carried by music (anh), cheerful from music, cry from music, desires to play drums, guitar,
Delusions: criticized, diminished, forsaken, hindered, error of personal identity, being laughed and mocked, lost, misunderstood, expects to be reproved, contraction of space, being watched, he is worthless, friendless, inferiority, one is about do die, thinks he is going to suffocate, that that somebody would come to catch me,
Religious: magic.
Causes: neglect, abuse, domination of parents, absent parents, addicted or weak, loss of parents and protectors, reproaches, anger, cares, contradiction, betrayed, disappointed love, emotions, loss of friends, disappointed love, mortification, being offended, unhappiness.
Generals
Build: thin.
Locality: left.
Weather: warm agg., too hot, warm blooded, -amel. cloudy weather; -amel. fresh air, sea, moonlight amel., sunlight amel.
Perspiration: abdomen, thorax.
Time: forenoon amel. afternoon agg. after eating (weariness)
Desires: coffee, tomate, farinaceous, fried potatoes, corn foods.
Aversion: vegetables, milk.
Food: agg., coffee (headache, palpitation).
Clothing: pressure amel.
Sleep: good, on the right side, waking at 5 h.
Physical: exertion amel., motion - amel. rapid, desire for motion, touch agg., weakness, weariness, rubbing amel., tired, lack of energy.
Complaints
Head: headaches, headache accompanied by pain in stomach, headache from strong odors, headache amel. by cold applications,
coldness of head.
Mouth: dryness from excitement, anxiety.
Throat: choking swallowing pills (lyss), swallowing food from anxiety, on going to sleep from saliva.
External throat: tension.
Neck: stiffness, tension as if carrying a burden (tab).
Stomach: want of appetite during sadness, respiration impeded during bad thoughts, nausea from odors, thirst extreme.
Abdomen: pains, as if bloated, as if the food is not moving, pressing against diaphragm, coldness of abdomen.
Respiration: difficult, inspiration, impeded, attacks of suffocation, hyperventilation, I have difficult respiration when it comes a bad thought, I thought I would stop to breathe, then I will to die (acon, kali-ar), it came morning more, I seated erect. It did not last more than five minutes.
Chest: palpitation from anxiety.
Male: quick ejaculation with anxiety.
Back: tension (cervical region).
Skin: face – greasy cheeks (hydr, nat-m, sumb), acne cystic (nit-ac, adam mlx), cicatrices from eruptions, urticaria / hives, eruptions itching from euphoria.I did not translate the full case because it is very long and my English is terrible.
He took beryl-n in those dates.
30 ch may 2007
200 c june 2007
I begun to go out with free spirit. I have had some haves…
1000 fc September 2007
I am more integrating with my family. I could talk with a neighbor. I am grateful for this door which was opened in my life…
1000 fc March 2008
Now I recognize that my malicious comments were clear evidences of my unbalance. In the past I stayed closed in my room far away of strangers…
2000 fc September 2008
I am very well. The persistent thoughts are disappearing, this fact made me more confident to put in practice my ideas. I am having a new quality of life. I am better of the social phobia when I am going out. I am going ahead…
My hypothesis
I believe that the central theme of Beryllium nitricum is related to this statement of the patient: DIFFICULTY TO MANAGE HIS OWN LIFE, FOR THIS HE DO NOT FORGIVE ALL THOSE WHO HE JUDEGES HAS DISTURBED HIS PROCESS.
I dreamed that I was driving cars. Reading about these dreams I perceived that the fear to drive only happens with demanding and detailed people who never want to be reticulated about wrongs made in public and there is a direct relation with difficulty to manage his own life.I am trying to adapt me to the environmente where II always lived (Curative symptom).
Statements of the patient:
I have acnes in my face in the form of cysts.
The determining factor of my problem is not having a social life, I am still inside the home, broken, I do not have enthusiasm to live. Social Activities like to buy a bread I make as it were for the first time. I am as an anti-social person who tries to adapt to the community, but I miss it. It is hard for me to adapt to social life, I must recover my self-confidence to learn to deal with it. I don’t grow up; I do not take part to the things of life. When I was a child I was ashamed to wear only underpants close to others (tub). I do not know what my ability, a sensation of powerlessness. I try remaining well with me to achieve something in life, let us see whether my body aids to enter the rhythm, on the trail, if it helps me tune.
I cannot react; I could try another course in the history of my life. The prejudice of society pains me as some family members on what is happening with me, this frigidity of character, this moral weakness, my naivety, this fear of responsibilities. The things at home are analyzed superficially, I am meager, revolted, I am very intolerant with the swearwords of my brother, I am wrong with life. I must take my life in my own way, I feel uncomfortable in the midst of the people. I hate be criticized unfairly, about things that I hear of the people of my co-existence. I lost the focus. My mood is distorted. I only canalize my energies for bad things. I must stabilize. I do not have a escape valve. We cannot demand a pattern of other, each one is who he is. My affection is suppressed.
I've kept resentment of my father because he did not know how to educate me and of my brother because his malicious comments. I become sad because my mother is a victim; she does not have the minimum of understanding to help me. I remain fixed in thoughts that do not lead me to nothing. I have tried delete that obscure and anguishing past, but I could not. I am wrong by being contaminated by discord, where should prevail forgiveness.
A look is enough to see that my old (father) finds absurd my behavior and thoughts, as if I were a psychotic escaping from reality. He tells me things such as: "put the feet on the floor". My brother is an alienated with his ridiculous justifications for a rational being. As it were not enough he disrupt my space. He meddles in my life wasting my friendships, creating a hellish climate. In fact no one has ever respected my space.
I hope and I am enthused with the possibility to take back the motivation to live and able to make my personal and professional projects in a way mild and calm, both in relation to me and other. I am concerned with my improvement, but I believe that we are right in relation to my treatment. I am impeded to do the activities of the day; I am despondent, arrested within me.
Inside home I feel some comfort, but just I leave that appears discomfort.
I wake up wanting to leave, cycle, run, but I cannot do, I am physical and mental exhausted, I am lazy to go out. I like to be free. My willingness to carry things is so much that I stop the natural procedure of my life.
I miss of life, I wish my place under the sun, I will not be only an adjuvant player, I don’t know to be passive. I would like to live with people more open to dialog, but the sociability is a torture.
I don’t go out; I remained more with me, closed too. I am unobtrusive; I don’t talk about my life for others. I hate being looked at, but I was always looking at things.
I want to wear dark glasses in the classroom, as if the others could see something wrong in my eyes (bar-act).
I suspect that someone is telling this or that about me, analyzing me.
I cannot look at the face, unless the other does not know anything about me.
I had the classic crises of panic trouble, my heart beat stronger, I lacked air, much anguish. They were fast, they came without any reason (acon, kali-ar). They happen when I am criticized, judged, questioned about my life. I cannot take a joke.
I am worry about other’s opinion; I feel badly when you judge me without knowing what is happen about me, if you make wrong diagnosis about my person.
I am only a grain of sand, but someone observe, I cannot hide the interior pain.
I hide my feelings, but they are clear to everybody.
I am ashamed of me not having a social life. I have social phobia.
I would like to see the life with other eyes. I perceive what others do not see.
I am not free to look people. My image reflects very different from that I am. I don´t allow others enter my life (cycl), they invade my privacy. I never invade the intimate of nobody. Actually nobody has ever respected my space.
The lack of objective affects my self esteem, I cannot initiate.
I want to be well with my family, with the most attached, but I don’t know what to do.
I have much love to give. I cannot get a partner appropriate to my profile. I must divide my weakness, I live seeking a partner in the virtual world. She never knew that I was there. I never was loved. I am ashamed to demonstrate my feelings, I believe that nobody understands me (stram). I am afraid not get a girlfriend because I don’t have a normal social life. I satisfy myself seeing videos and photos, the real sex is better.
I try to be self-sufficient. I know defending myself very well. I am not a promise as a scholarly of football, I am a reality.
I seek a quality of stable life. In childhood I was totally open, I live well with everybody (beryl in + pole), I was very attached with my parents.
My mother suffocate (acon) me with her excesses of protection, I am sorry because she is a victim and does not have a minimum of understanding to help me. My father helps me pay the treatment.
I don´t valorize material things. The system of the chief (my father) runs away completely of my principles, of my values and ideals.
Statements of the patient which may be attributed to the ion Nitricum (NO3−) of the compound.
I am wrong because I am contaminated by discord, where the forgiveness should prevail. I've kept things that I do not need, I have resentment of my father because he didn’t know educating me, I cannot forgive him, and my brother because he made malicious comments which created a hellish climate in my life. I don’t desire this for my greatest enemy.
I feel a hate unjustifiable against many relatives and closer people. I have left the family of hand, I am very grudging, very intolerant of contradiction, and I take everything to iron and fire. The past insists to distress me.
It is hard to me forgetting the bad events of this traumatic past, which hurt my heart. To be criticized unfairly spleen me. If someone insists I could not forgive. I remain in the virtual life because of traumas of the past caused by suffering and constraints, they destroyed my self esteem.
I cannot solve my problems in the curt. I want to know your opinion about my desire to process the psychiatrist who diagnosed me mistakenly.
What I want I persevere. I have a very large heart, an integrate character. I hate be touched, I do not support that you pity me. I was a victim.
HOW DO YOU FEEL WITH YOUR FRIENDS?
Allthough I have friends (phosphoricums, nitricums), they are very important for me (sars, mag-m), someone is always calling me, they ask how am I thus, I am jealousy for my friends, nevertheless my brother takes most of them.
From his history I took the following symptoms.
Expressions
Fear: social phobia, of reproached / censured, of being ridiculed, of his condition being observed, of being excluded, of going out, of streets, of strangers, of unknown, of crowds in street, of embracing life, of future, of failure, of coition from anxiety, of disease, of disease of heart, of suffocation, of sudden (panic attacks, overpowering), of cancer, of apoplexy, of losing support of the doctor, of will not have a partner, of will no study (ped a1), of being neglected / rejected, of being alone, of driving a car, of insanity, of unconsciousness (alum, alumn), of opinion of others, of poverty, of responsibility, of falling from high places, of birds, death, of dark, of monsters, of authority, of to give criticism, of hurting others, fear with weary of life, fear with palpitation, fear of a process, fear causeless.
Dreams: being a professional football player, married with my platonic love, with friends of childhood (calc-p).
Mental and Mood: timid, timid about appearing in public (coldness of abdomen), bashful, uncertain, indecisive, -amel. and agg. support, listless, meaningless, gloomy, childish behavior, discouraged, cowardice, contemptuous, contemptuous of life, contemptuous of self, discontented, discontented with him self, doubtful, doubtful of recovery, helplessness, forsaken feeling, indifference to loved ones, want self confidence, mental insecurity, excluded from life, cannot bear to be looked at, without place, difficult defining his own place, sensitive to criticism, presence of strangers agg., sympathetic, benevolence, vulnerable, undertaking: he would rather evade a problem than face it, abrupt, anger from contraction, anger easily, anger at trifles, anger violent, anguish, anguish preventing respiration, anxiety extreme, anxiety about one’s own health, anxiety with impeded respiration, aversion to certain persons, beside oneself, disposition to contradict, contrary, euphoria. /irritability from trifles, jealousy, lamenting, laziness, despising life, litigious, aversion to live, needs for love, malicious / resentment, misanthropy, mocking, mood changeable, repulsive, morose, morose with oneself, morose weeping amel. obstinate, offended easily, perseverance, optimistic, pessimist, ability for philosophy, pities herself, quiet disposition, rage, power of reason increased, remorse, reproaching others, reserved, resignation, complains of respriration agg. from mental symptoms, internal restlessness, rudeness, sadness with anger, sadness anxious, sadness about disease, sadness gloomy, sadness after midnight on waking at 5 h, secretive, selfishness, sensitive to external impressions, sensitive to noise, sensitive to touch, sighing, disposition to slander, disagreeable thoughts, persistent, tormenting, aversion to be touched, trifles seem important, feels unfortunate, vivacious, wearisome, weary of life, weeping amel., loss of will power, prostration of mind, wretched, refusing to take the medicine, making verses, sentimental, love-sick, hypochondriasis, curious, yearning for peace, desire for harmony, powerless, always look at the things, company agg., Inside home I have certain comfort, but if I leave it discomfort appears, carried by music (anh), cheerful from music, cry from music, desires to play drums, guitar,
Delusions: criticized, diminished, forsaken, hindered, error of personal identity, being laughed and mocked, lost, misunderstood, expects to be reproved, contraction of space, being watched, he is worthless, friendless, inferiority, one is about do die, thinks he is going to suffocate, that that somebody would come to catch me,
Religious: magic.
Causes: neglect, abuse, domination of parents, absent parents, addicted or weak, loss of parents and protectors, reproaches, anger, cares, contradiction, betrayed, disappointed love, emotions, loss of friends, disappointed love, mortification, being offended, unhappiness.
Generals
Build: thin.
Locality: left.
Weather: warm agg., too hot, warm blooded, -amel. cloudy weather; -amel. fresh air, sea, moonlight amel., sunlight amel.
Perspiration: abdomen, thorax.
Time: forenoon amel. afternoon agg. after eating (weariness)
Desires: coffee, tomate, farinaceous, fried potatoes, corn foods.
Aversion: vegetables, milk.
Food: agg., coffee (headache, palpitation).
Clothing: pressure amel.
Sleep: good, on the right side, waking at 5 h.
Physical: exertion amel., motion - amel. rapid, desire for motion, touch agg., weakness, weariness, rubbing amel., tired, lack of energy.
Complaints
Head: headaches, headache accompanied by pain in stomach, headache from strong odors, headache amel. by cold applications,
coldness of head.
Mouth: dryness from excitement, anxiety.
Throat: choking swallowing pills (lyss), swallowing food from anxiety, on going to sleep from saliva.
External throat: tension.
Neck: stiffness, tension as if carrying a burden (tab).
Stomach: want of appetite during sadness, respiration impeded during bad thoughts, nausea from odors, thirst extreme.
Abdomen: pains, as if bloated, as if the food is not moving, pressing against diaphragm, coldness of abdomen.
Respiration: difficult, inspiration, impeded, attacks of suffocation, hyperventilation, I have difficult respiration when it comes a bad thought, I thought I would stop to breathe, then I will to die (acon, kali-ar), it came morning more, I seated erect. It did not last more than five minutes.
Chest: palpitation from anxiety.
Male: quick ejaculation with anxiety.
Back: tension (cervical region).
Skin: face – greasy cheeks (hydr, nat-m, sumb), acne cystic (nit-ac, adam mlx), cicatrices from eruptions, urticaria / hives, eruptions itching from euphoria.I did not translate the full case because it is very long and my English is terrible.
He took beryl-n in those dates.
30 ch may 2007
200 c june 2007
I begun to go out with free spirit. I have had some haves…
1000 fc September 2007
I am more integrating with my family. I could talk with a neighbor. I am grateful for this door which was opened in my life…
1000 fc March 2008
Now I recognize that my malicious comments were clear evidences of my unbalance. In the past I stayed closed in my room far away of strangers…
2000 fc September 2008
I am very well. The persistent thoughts are disappearing, this fact made me more confident to put in practice my ideas. I am having a new quality of life. I am better of the social phobia when I am going out. I am going ahead…
My hypothesis
I believe that the central theme of Beryllium nitricum is related to this statement of the patient: DIFFICULTY TO MANAGE HIS OWN LIFE, FOR THIS HE DO NOT FORGIVE ALL THOSE WHO HE JUDEGES HAS DISTURBED HIS PROCESS.