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Alcea rosea
Year 2022, Issue 53Case
English: Queen of the gardenMindI always felt the need to do sweet things for others, but I was far too shy to really do it. Giving presents, for example, was always very scary. When I had haptotherapy, and he noticed that as soon as I started talking my whole body language changed. Restless, eyes shooting back and forth etc. Just afraid to reveal myself.
A winged statement from my father was: "you have nothing to want". And being "cheeky" was clearly wrong and gave risks.BodyI had a symphysiolysis when I gave birth to my first child. It was a traumatic birthgiving for me, which I denied quickly. Over the years I developed a scoliosis in the lumbar region. The last years have been difficult for me because I became more and more invalid. After a revalidation program I am doing much better now, knowing my bounderies better and not denying the pain any longer. So my first chakra is very hurt and tensed.Suddenly some peaces come together. If I read that message it is all about heartenergy isn’t it? The physical sensations are also the heartregion. The dream about the shaman did not suprise me. I think it is correct I loose heartenergy when I talk to people. My haptotherapist always notices that when I start talking I am changing. I loose calmness, my eyes are going everywhere and I go out of my body. I do something like holding it up all the time.I had a plaster corset 2 times. Both times I felt very good in it, what is quite strange. Both times when the plaster corset is taken off I feel insecure again. Just a world of difference. What I think now is that the corset protects my heart energy. it makes sense to me and I think that the most important thing to do now is to learn to protect my heart energy. Everyone is taking from it and I just get tears in my eyes when I say this. And there is an rememberance now to 2 readings I had, where they saw a group of woman in a former life. I made a commitment with this group, something about giving energy, to which I should hold unto also this lifetime.But sometimes I am really having troubles in my work because of giving myself away. I hope Alcea rosea is also working on this subject. A good thing I took the pink one. So this is what I wanted to share with you. I do feel more clear now and less tired.Dream: large leaves were growing out of my legs. Afterr 2 years I recognized her as hollyhock. Then I suddenly saw her everywhere especially in my own neighborhood. At the same time I got a soup bowl for my birthday from my mother with the Alcea Rosea on it. Then I knew for sure that I had to do something with it. My vagina always gives a reaction when I pass the flower, even when I am driving fast on my bike.Follow upNo homeopathic remedy has been healing for me on the back-pains.
Alcea rosea has helped me to make myself visible. I survived my youth by making myself invisible. That was the safest method. The hollyhock is also called "the queen of the garden". You can't get around her.
My process of change started by making myself more visible in what I want, what I need and also in being attentive to others.
Alcea rosea helped me a lot to look my fear in the eyes and to make myself visible. Also physically and in dreams all kinds of things changed. For example, I didn't have to go to the toilet ten times a night to pee. Often I slept all night long during the alcea rosea proving and that almost never happened before. It reminded me of the fact that according to my mother I was already housebroken at 18 months. I think I knew at a very young age exactly what she wanted from me and was afraid to put it in my pants. I remember (3 or 4 years old) hiding my wet underwear behind the bin. Well, something under peeing is of course an ultimate form of making yourself present.In dreams the eternal theme shifted from being among people and doing something wrong or not being there to being there and even getting support from a group of people. Attention, comfort. I remember writing this down, that in my consultations with you I used these words: "and then I'm gone". And then you asked me again by what I meant by "gone".I notice I feel different towards my lover. I am 5 months now very much in love. I feel more distance now. First I was surprised by that. But I think something is changing in my fear to be rejected. This is a very deep feeling, time over time again it hurts me and seems to be deeper than only this lifetime. So when I am in love I am very vulnerable. Love is for me nearly the same as fear to be rejected.In a way I feel I am ready to let go all the hurt and all the pain. In a meditation some months ago I realised I did not want to let go grief and pain. I also noticed the last months that my giving and receiving energy are not balanced, which gives me troubles in my work as a homeopath. I hope very much to find that balance in learning more sjamanism and travelling in the different worlds.
A winged statement from my father was: "you have nothing to want". And being "cheeky" was clearly wrong and gave risks.BodyI had a symphysiolysis when I gave birth to my first child. It was a traumatic birthgiving for me, which I denied quickly. Over the years I developed a scoliosis in the lumbar region. The last years have been difficult for me because I became more and more invalid. After a revalidation program I am doing much better now, knowing my bounderies better and not denying the pain any longer. So my first chakra is very hurt and tensed.Suddenly some peaces come together. If I read that message it is all about heartenergy isn’t it? The physical sensations are also the heartregion. The dream about the shaman did not suprise me. I think it is correct I loose heartenergy when I talk to people. My haptotherapist always notices that when I start talking I am changing. I loose calmness, my eyes are going everywhere and I go out of my body. I do something like holding it up all the time.I had a plaster corset 2 times. Both times I felt very good in it, what is quite strange. Both times when the plaster corset is taken off I feel insecure again. Just a world of difference. What I think now is that the corset protects my heart energy. it makes sense to me and I think that the most important thing to do now is to learn to protect my heart energy. Everyone is taking from it and I just get tears in my eyes when I say this. And there is an rememberance now to 2 readings I had, where they saw a group of woman in a former life. I made a commitment with this group, something about giving energy, to which I should hold unto also this lifetime.But sometimes I am really having troubles in my work because of giving myself away. I hope Alcea rosea is also working on this subject. A good thing I took the pink one. So this is what I wanted to share with you. I do feel more clear now and less tired.Dream: large leaves were growing out of my legs. Afterr 2 years I recognized her as hollyhock. Then I suddenly saw her everywhere especially in my own neighborhood. At the same time I got a soup bowl for my birthday from my mother with the Alcea Rosea on it. Then I knew for sure that I had to do something with it. My vagina always gives a reaction when I pass the flower, even when I am driving fast on my bike.Follow upNo homeopathic remedy has been healing for me on the back-pains.
Alcea rosea has helped me to make myself visible. I survived my youth by making myself invisible. That was the safest method. The hollyhock is also called "the queen of the garden". You can't get around her.
My process of change started by making myself more visible in what I want, what I need and also in being attentive to others.
Alcea rosea helped me a lot to look my fear in the eyes and to make myself visible. Also physically and in dreams all kinds of things changed. For example, I didn't have to go to the toilet ten times a night to pee. Often I slept all night long during the alcea rosea proving and that almost never happened before. It reminded me of the fact that according to my mother I was already housebroken at 18 months. I think I knew at a very young age exactly what she wanted from me and was afraid to put it in my pants. I remember (3 or 4 years old) hiding my wet underwear behind the bin. Well, something under peeing is of course an ultimate form of making yourself present.In dreams the eternal theme shifted from being among people and doing something wrong or not being there to being there and even getting support from a group of people. Attention, comfort. I remember writing this down, that in my consultations with you I used these words: "and then I'm gone". And then you asked me again by what I meant by "gone".I notice I feel different towards my lover. I am 5 months now very much in love. I feel more distance now. First I was surprised by that. But I think something is changing in my fear to be rejected. This is a very deep feeling, time over time again it hurts me and seems to be deeper than only this lifetime. So when I am in love I am very vulnerable. Love is for me nearly the same as fear to be rejected.In a way I feel I am ready to let go all the hurt and all the pain. In a meditation some months ago I realised I did not want to let go grief and pain. I also noticed the last months that my giving and receiving energy are not balanced, which gives me troubles in my work as a homeopath. I hope very much to find that balance in learning more sjamanism and travelling in the different worlds.