Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Secret Lanthanides
Type:
Remedy
Chapter:
11.3
11.3 Terbium oxydatum
Analysis
Keeping self-control over their egotistical side
Keeping self-control in order not to be abused
Keeping self-control in the fight against corruption
Keeping corruption in control
Keeping egotism in control
Maintaining self-control to prevent being abused
Maintaining self-control so they get abused
Maintaining self-control to prevent themselves abusing others
Maintaining self-control to prevent poverty
Gentleman beggar
Maintaining self-control to prevent the shadow taking over
Keeping autonomy in order not to be disgusted
Maintaining control over the shit
Keeping control as a neglected child
Egotism is a form of losing self-control
Being a gentleman in order not to be neglected as a person
Keeping autonomy to avoid being despised
Maintaining self-control to prevent being abused
They have the idea that they have to maintain control all the time so that they won’t be abused. They fear letting go of their emotions and expressing their thoughts freely out of fear that others will use this information and start abusing or even blackmailing them.
Maintaining self-control to prevent themselves abusing others
They can fear that they will use or abuse others if they don't control themselves continuously. They fear the egotistic and dark sides of their nature. They can get in situations where they lose everything, often because they are abused by others. Then they have to ask for help, even when they abhor it. But also then they maintain their self-control in their asking and begging, so they are like a gentleman beggar.
Being a gentleman in order not to be neglected as a person
Their state is often the consequence of a childhood where they were abused or neglected. They started the control over their emotions in order not to feel the emotions and pain. Or they learned that their parents could take more advantage of them when they showed their emotions.
Maintaining self-control to prevent the shadow taking over
On a higher level of development they want to keep their control over their psyche too. They have a fear that inside their soul there are dark and ugly aspects. They fear that if they can’t maintain control all the time, the shadow will take over and all the shit will come out. They can also go into spiritual training like Zen or Avatar to train themselves to maintain their self-control. The loss of self-control is like the loss of autonomy.