15.14 Thulium muriaticumAnalysisNot cared for because of being bad
Idea of being evil when having lost relatives
Mother is a bad, dark person
Mother is preaching hell and damnation
Mother sees them as a bad, dark person
Mother has given up her independence
Mother has forced them to give up their independence
Giving up autonomy to get care
Fear of going to hell if not caring
Giving up autonomy to offer care in a religious sect
Not cared for because of being badThey have the feeling of being evil and dark and thus are not worth being cared for. They have the idea that everything that goes wrong is their fault. When relatives die or leave, they think that that's because of them, that they are such bad persons that no one would like to stay with them. This feeling makes them very tense, with dark eyes. Together with a pointed nose and chin, it can give their face a witch-like quality.
Mother is preaching gloom and doomThis state is often the result of a mother who told them as a child that they were evil. Their mother is often in a similar state, feeling like she is in hell and thus starts scolding and humiliating them, neglecting their care. Often as a child, they had to care of themselves and for the other children. They can give up their autonomy for the care of their siblings with the feeling that they at least protect them from becoming psychologically damaged.
Giving up autonomy for caring in a religious sect
They can become very religious, searching for the essence of life. But they often have the feeling that they won't be able to attain liberation, that they are too bad for that, as if ingrained with original sin. In trying to find liberation they can go into religious groups or sects where they give up their autonomy and start caring for the others and sometimes the whole world.