Author: Jan Scholten
Boy of around 9, feels bored and sad, alternating with being frivolous and jumpy. Life is not easy as his parents expect something of him but he does not know what. Parents feel distant. They keep secrets for the children, family stories are not communicated. Parents or grandparents have been very hard and beating.
The strategy is to play, have no opinions and take the easy route, one's own way.
Confusion, muddled in memory of words and times.
Hard to have an identity.
Natural versus chemical.
Grandfather beating his wife, a family secret.
What goes up, must come down.
Good work ethic, following through, pride in work.
Childlike, silliness, playful, naïve, gullible, no responsibility.
Keeping secrets from children, hiding abusiveness.
Discipline vs. passiveness.
Making choices, decisions vs. being told what to do.
Distracted, disconnected, jumping from subject to subject, muddled.
Hierarchy, being your own boss, creating your own identity.
Machismo, relationship between father and son.
Colors pink and purple.
Difficulty with word retrieval, mixing up words, rhyming.
Muddled thinking, difficulty processing information.
Music; Pink Floyd, Deep Purple, song “Spinning Wheel” by Blood, Sweat & Tears.
Sensation: bubble, bubbling.
Head: tingling; sharp pain left temple extending to ear and eye.
Eye: prickly, itchy and red; vision, colors seem vivid and bright.
Ear: sharp, fullness in Left ear; averse to sound, sensitive to noise, hearing full and bubbly, not processing.
Nose: prickly, itchy and red.
Chest: pulling, squeezing, tightening in chest, below clavicle and into sternocleidomastoid.
Abdomen: bursting pain in liver.
Female: metrorrhagia, < menopause.
Back: tingling neck.
Limbs: tingling right arm.