Case by Ina ter Beek.
Woman, living alone, born 1963-021-18Working for years as a teacher with children at the age of 4 or 5. She is a very refined, emotional sensitive lady with fabulous creativity. When she looks at a child she really sees a child and can give the child whatever it needs emotionally and educationally.
She is following an extra study in educational reform thinking she is the best reformer already which might actually be true.. but not in the world of regularity, rules, authority, etcetera. She has a high intelligence, thinks in concepts and does not like to worry over the details. So she already criticised her professors during the study over a lack of concept. Coming to making reports however, she does not succeed in writing these because of those details and because of not getting in contact with the teachers about what they really want. Using the method of copy and paste her reports are becoming worse and worse. Because of comments of others on her reports of which she thinks: "I gave you what you wanted." she refuses any further work for study, school, household, etcetera and only wants to look at American soaps.
Het father has been headmaster of the school for lower general secondary education and was so terrible authoritarian that he let nothing and no one stand in the way in his work and at home. Her mother was adaptive, her eldest brother thought as a child of his father: "He is so authoritarian and without any humor that it makes no sense to counteract him." Her second brother put up a vigorous fight against the father.. which made in the end no sense. This woman, number three and the last in de family fled from the family into the polder.
When she was home she told: "I have to have my head in a void otherwise my father knows what I am thinking."
Alcohol is a thing for the whole family in that they are used to keep drinking.
I gave her
Polytrichum commune for the first time in the spring 2017 and kept repeating it.
Since I asked her to react in a report on
Polytrichum commune is this what follows. Note: she writes in the third persona about herself as if it is not her, as if she does not have an identity of herself.
In her own words:
"The family consists of a father, a mother, two sons and a daughter. The father (a school director) dominates the family. He doesn’t tolerate critic on his behaviour. The needs of the other family members are being neglected. The main focus of the mother (a secretary) is her husband. In her childhood she is used to get her own way. In the marriage she adjusts her behaviour because of the desired status this marriage gives her. About every ten or fifteen years she has a serious and sometimes live threatening illness. When she recovers (which sometimes takes a year) there is a reduced ability to perform tasks in the household such as cleaning the house for which she gets domestic assistance. The oldest son chooses a study the father tells him to do. The second son chooses a study which satisfies both himself and his father. The youngest child refuses to adapt to most things in the family. She refuses to study. To get her own way she acts like she is stupid. As a teenager she gets mentally isolated and tangled up in herself. This results when she is a young adult in delusions in which she thinks she is evil and becomes totally passive. She only wants to sleep and others have to take care of her. She always has a feeling of ‘not getting what she needs/diserves’. In reality she has everything she needs, but she refuses to take care of herself and her responsibility’s in live.
The effect of ‘moss’After taking the ‘moss’ the symptoms disappear and she can pick up her live. The first two weeks in the morning there is a feeling of resistance to get up. This disappears after she gets up and begins with her daily routines. Repetition of taking ‘moss’ is necessary. Eventually she learns to understand and to recognize her problem: to take full responsibility of her own actions.
The heart of the matter is not taking up the responsibility of her own live. There is a passive or active resistance when she doesn’t get her own way. Moss gets her back in reality and gives her the opportunity tot choose: taking responsibility or in isolation getting your own way."