Sense proving, 24-9-2021, Zell, Susanna Villedieu.
Prover 1Man, in care home, sister stressed, he has windel full of stool, he doesn't want to be taken care of, he resists the too strong sister.; then he jerks off better.
It's useless to resist.
Worked so hard.
NOW everything is unworthy.
Averse to being a burden.
Too weak to go to the toilet, to talk.
Osteoporosis, Bechterew, vertebral column curved.
Sweet man, warm, Polish, language problem, experienced many bad things, 1 of his 2 daughters died 9th, leukemia, or brain, wife withdrawn, angry. He has worked in many countries, away from trauma.
Retired early.
Soft, friendly.
Skin not breathing.
Everything is covered, sweat does not come out.
Psora.
Dried out,
Crete, donkey farm, donkeys years of hard work Santorini, friendly, sleeping with eyes open.
Cold back.
warm face there is always hope.
Weather in motion.
Thirsty.
Phase 1, Phase 2DD: lac asinum, take all the burden on you and remain soft.
DD sodium.
DiscussionPlace no longer found, earth rummaged through; rubbed in the stall; smells like hay, looks like a flower; leaf rolled up; tough when torn.
Smells like old poop; man over 80a in nursing home, bedridden, nurse comes in stressed, disgusted because his diaper is full, he does not want to have diapers changed, but she is strong and gets her way; he lets it be done.
After that he smells better
Lump in throat, burning.
Talking to self - worked so hard and em end everything feels unworthy; I don't want to be dependent, but I don't have the strength.
back pain, trying to straighten up; osteoporosis, ankylosing spondylitis.
Patient who speaks only Polish; ankylosing spondylitis; kind-hearted dear person; does not think much, has experienced a lot of bad things; I learned from a friend of the daughter - dad has two daughters, at 9a the older one died of leukemia, after that his wife became severely depressed /manic; his reaction to that as a hired worker he always went very far away (to be away from the trauma.) it is not talked about this trauma, like family secret; always worked hard; became early retiree.
Very gentle, kind - remains faithful to his wife despite all the crises.
Sweat sticky, skin can not breathe, sweat can not dry, everything becomes musty; psora; dry up suffocate can not breathe.
Donkeys that work hard.animals do not grumble but do the work very kindly.
Enclosed in themselves.
As if they were sleeping with their eyes open.
Think of natrium dryness and cheerfulness and sadness.
Here the love could never really germinate, the none is still in the earth.
Sitting in a wheelchair and totally content in the park.
Cold back, spine.
Then someone kissed me gently on the lips - there is always hope...then mobility comes again.
Essence: silica series - problem is more with wife, daughter, especially in the family, work is the way out; actually he is alone, sad.
Complainless death in the family, child died (over several years), does not complain, serving without complaint.
He just stays in the system of the family - although they don't really meet each other - inwardly disconnected - outwardly connected by the trauma.
Fungus: taboos; dealing with taboos.disintegrating relationship; unconnected connected.
DD Lac asinum; one takes all the burden upon oneself and remains good-natured and gentle; you bear everything; carry the heavy loads - but not such a theme of death; and family secret.
Actinides: after death in the family fragments the family.