Sense proving, 25-10-2019, Haltern am see, Ursula
Prover 1No smell.
"I'm special" "I blow myself up".
Big, but little substance.
Tense silence.
"Like an octopus I am devouring you" "I will eat you".
Devouring mother.
Fertility (bubble full of spores).
Medusa head, to be caught, can not escape.
Nose and corner of the mouth is contracting.
Alive, I am in secret.
Corpse that is eaten up.
Image of a Shadow Being (human like) floating above the ground, between gravestones (reminiscent of Dementors in Harry Potter feeding themselves on the energy of others); black hooded coat: "Nobody escapes me. I'll catch you all”.
Pressure in the head starting from the inside, expanding outwards.
I feel my pulse where the fungus lies; everything else is numb.
Energy is concentrated in the mind.
Feel disconnected from the world -I have my own world.
I put the fungus on the solar plexus => "I'm stealing you life energy".
Stomach pain.
"I will not let you go".
Narcissistic insult.
Throat is contracting; tingling.
It is sucking me - sucks all thoughts out of my head.
First contact:I discover the fungus together with Martin.
It is sensational, glamorous. I admire it.
There is a hole in the top puffball of the fungus.
It is a highly sophisticated being with a sensor hole on the top that radiates from inside to the outside.
It catches my attention. I have to look vertically to the hole, so that it can contact and perceive me.
The exact vertical angle is important to get to the point, to the essence. I understand it wants to be seen.
I try to convince the others to take the photos from the vertical angle to get to the point.
But perhaps they cannot cope with this intense radiant hole. I can cope with it, I am sure.
When we touch it it puffs brown powder out of its hole. It is an elegant smoker.
I hardly want to leave it and promise to come back to it later.
A few hours later I keep my promise and try to find the fungus.
I worry what happened to it. Where is it?
It is not easy to find and I feel a bit guilty. Why didn’t I care and stayed with it?
Finally I find it. And now I see also the inside of it. My memory of it is so different. I am so deceived. It had seemed so attractive, so big, but now I recognize there is not much left of this. No substance, just fake.
It still catches me and I fear I would not get rid of it.
I give the parts away, but still a small part of it clings to me. Finally, with the help of others, I manage to give this small rest back to the soil.
DiscussionFacade, mask, smug, hollow.
Character: Gilderoy Lockhart (of Harry Potter)
Stage 14.