Author:
Jan Scholten
Book:
Secret Lanthanides
Type:
Remedy
Chapter:
14.7
14.7 Erbium oxydatum
Analysis
Powerless to keep independence as a neglected child
Powerless to keep independence and self-worth
Powerless to prevent loss of money and independence
Loss of money leads to loss of independence
Abused because they’re too weak to be free
Feeling despised as distant and dependent
Formal self-control because of being abused
Gloomy beggar
Beggar with only formal freedom
Despised because of being almost out of self-control
Forebodings of loss of self-worth
Ironic beggar
Powerless to remain independent as a neglected child
They are too weak and powerless to keep their independence. This is often due to having been neglected as a child. They haven’t enough feeling of self-worth to give them the power to be themselves. They become aloof and distant in order to hold on to an inner feeling of autonomy because they can’t maintain it in the outer world. They become indifferent as it’s no use for them to do anything, as it will have no effect. The develop the attitude of a passive onlooker, but inside the feel injustice has been done to them. They resign aggrieved. They hold in their pain and even forget it.
Loss of money leads to loss of independence
They have a fear of poverty. They see money as a means of maintaining their independence and freedom. Loss of money can lead to the fear of losing their autonomy. Then they will feel as if something could happen anytime, but they don’t know what and from where. Then they will behave in a manner indifferent, distant and aloof, as if they aren't touched by the situation. It’s a gloomy feeling that makes them feel powerless to do anything. So they act indifferent and can even become ironic.
Ironic beggar
In the extreme form they can become a beggar but even then they have a kind of aristocracy: they don’t want to give themselves away. In their begging they have a kind of indifference, as if they aren't interested in whether something will be given to them or not. It’s a strange combination of being selfish and totally indifferent.